Big dreams, small income…

I’ve resigned myself to being lower income for the rest of my life. Thus I have begun spending less if not more wisely. Making decisions to go with simpler, thus cheaper, more durable solutions, buying pre-owned, and riding a bicycle instead of driving a car. I will not have an MT-G, just my GA2200. I won’t own a suit or nice shiny shoes, just my Teva Winsted sandals bought at a father’s day discount. And I will be happy, no complaints.

Getting my Gerber Shard in, I now can turn my attention to my watch recommendation database app. It will still be written in C, and available free on FreeLunch.my. Will begin after a good lunch cooked by Dad’s aunt. I love watches so this will be fun. More later…

After a light lunch, I’m settling in to code. Thought I might as well upgrade my skills to C++ which will take some learning. Hope it’s worthwhile. Using Visual Studio which is cool but harder to navigate than RHIDE back in college. Will watch some videos and begin downloading watches into categories of RBSEJ format.

Watched Mosh on YouTube explain C++. Am almost ready to write my watch app. Swept my room. Had a good loo earlier. Am not constipated anymore this afternoon. Checking on my EDCs:

1. Teva Winsted sandals
2. Oakley Plazma shades
3. Casio w800h
4. Caribee backpack, small
5. Grubber space blanket
6. Thin rain poncho
7. Lotion
8. Soap
9. Toothpaste
10. Toothbrush
11. Spork
12. Lighter
13. Serviettes
14. Keys on carbiner
15. Gerber Shard
16. Zip wallet, big, $100, rail card, ID, ATM card
17. Nokia smartphone, basic
18. Multicolor pen

Soon we will be living in a poor neighborhood with no security. Will dress in cheaper clothes and wear a cheap watch. Not put on my expensive things until I reach the train. Been looking for a smaller sunglasses case.

My cash at hand is around 1kRM. Sufficient for unexpected spending, here in Malaysia. Dad has 35kRM stashed in the bank. That should be enough for a medical emergency or two. Other than that, the folks have deep savings that will eventually become my inheritance, seeing as how I’m mentally disabled and pushed onto a witchy Asian family of preventers. My own family is lately all about prophecy, expecting me to fulfill God’s coming. And the economy ails, and the Covid spreads, and life is lived one day at a time. I have 37kRM in my EPF. But that money will only be withdraw-able during the height of the world crisis before the Rapture. 

In the meantime, I have to accept that I’ll always be lower income. That I won’t have many nice things or food, or nice places to go to. All this while being harangued in the mindspaces and destroyed in the flesh, really for nothing but the irrational fear of the guilty.