I’m thinking of leaving the socials and blogosphere…

Again, I find journaling and sharing with my readers out there, thanks for your support, to be increasingly, something more obsessive than constructive. Something like binge watching X or YouTube shorts. I have to stop those as well. And I will be pursuing other things, music, art, programming. See how far I go. 

 

Nobody seems to want to give me a break. At least, since I suffered that 2007 stroke and was crashed on in 2010 by the managers of the telepathy crisis. An episode in my life is over.

And I was thinking, perhaps my bow sight should have weights on 2 parallel tracks. 2 weights might do to produce a curved response. Simplified the design. It will be an oval or parabolic piece of rotating card, with 1 or 2 flat weights and a pin stuck off center. That should produce a curve.

This will be my last post for some time, maybe till mid / end June.

 

So the sight will look like this: two pieces of card slotted together into an X, and wedged into the mount hex clamp. As the bow angle is raised, the pin on the end of the X needs to drop. A plastic leaf spring decompresses from oblong to circular, affording this. Tuning is achieved by adding weight to the top of the leaf spring.

 

Was thinking of firing from a height as well. There might be a mechanism built in to deliver a curve that is less steep. Perhaps as the weight on the leaf spring slips forward against it.

 

Wow, my last post until the miracles start to occur. Stay safe, and take care, everyone.

I was wondering about many things…

And I thought of leaving home to start a new life somewhere. Maybe I should bring along my guitar as it does help express my creative emotional needs. It’s nice to write songs once in a while. I think that today, I will try playing my Piano chords on the fretboard, working from there around the 5 patterns I found in Raymond Teoh’s guide. Yes I own his book and it is useful if not the best guide -if you are serious about learning.

And I thought of taking long walks again. Tomorrow, to head out wandering. There has been no reply from the publisher I sent my MS to. No movement on shipping my puffy wallet. No urge to code n4s or resume writing SDU, no motivation to build my bow sight. Perhaps I will model it tonight and have it 3D printed.

The design was simplified further. I am able to build it tonight from materials at home tho not calibrate it just yet. It will be made from stiff card and bits of wire. It will come with a friction disc and extra heavier counterweight so it’s less susceptible to wind and vibrations. 

I think the more the tail bends bodywards, the higher the lift action. To get a lift curve, the tail has to go straight down with several weights at different points along the vertical. These weights are just wire wrapped with card. Seems each weight is similar and must be vertically adjustable, calibration is done that way.

Read my article on understanding Physics on Medium: https://medium.com/@chnkngyp/time-and-space-824789292c5c -it’s quite good, receiving 10 claps so far.

Good news, my new wallet will ship tomorrow. Should receive it by 1st June ahead of the family get together.

Circa 1:30am. Just took my meds, worked out and showered. Brush by 2am. Somehow, I lost about a kilogram over the past week and a half. Had been eating less and exercising more. I lifted myself off the floor 18 times clean and did 20 cross sit-ups, no strain. Should think I’m growing stronger but not too much so I don’t fit my clothes. Just to stay healthy as possible.

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Didn’t do much last night. Was attacked up till before bed. Seems the Liew scourge has moved elsewhere for now, together with the westerners and the people pressed in to make a more interesting party. My life is rather dull and I know I was just used, polluted, and spat out.

The things God said I should prepare are converging…

I think I now know the meaning of the ‘ball’, ‘scope’, ‘fat wallet’, ‘helmet’, and ‘moonphase watch’ as I am on the verge of sorting out the last few glitches in my purchases.

Convinced that June-July will see the soccer world cup where something happens (the ball). The scope is a symbol of mankind being, then after, able to predict what comes next - vengeance from God. It is then that one needs to be generous (the puffy wallet). After that, there comes a period of unrest and environmental disasters, thus the helmet. The moonphase watch symbolizes a period when there are exactly 30 days to a lunar cycle and 360 days in a year. This is somewhere in the Bible, IIRC.

So I had to buy all 5 items and describe them for people to believe. If I just told about it, it would not be enough to convince the world. Earlier, we talked about the 4 proofs of God. It was fun and many now know we were at some stage created or at least meddled with, genetically. That there is a Creator who is lord over us.

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I need to speak on compatibility issues between men and women. Nobody is perfect except that our vows are perfect. Not to rush into marriage, sexual misconduct, pregnancy etc. But when we find someone suitable, and I will explain, we make those vows and keep them. Keeping vows is important to God otherwise there would be no love, trust or faith.

Suitability comes not from an ideal, for nobody is ideal but Jesus. Nobody can make an ideal progeny except God, who is the Father. Suitability is like training a vine. My father used to say it is like growing a garden for your wife and family to live in. But Dad was a bit off, it really is like training a vine.

And to adapt to the needs of one another is love aplenty. And to see fruit borne thru, is love fulfilled, gladness and joy. Sure, the telepathy initiated by some quarters, irresponsibly, makes it easy to scope out the world, but really, it is our outside, not inside, that drives prophecy and does  good works, etc. Don’t be deceived that telepathy harbings our destiny. We must not use it too much.

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I have been putting together my travel wardrobe and I think my chef pants would be good to wear, as would my tarmak basketball shorts and sleeveless running shirt. I would need my linen shirt as well, and that should be all I pack. Maybe a small towel and 2 pairs of socks, underwear.

Am thinking twice of lugging anything much else. Maybe just a Bible to read and teach from. When Jesus said, sell everything and follow me, he meant that the gospel of the kingdom was the only thing worth having -especially these end of days. I can’t dispute this as I would not like to have too much travel baggage. Parker ball-pen ink seems to play well with Bible paper. Not sure why some are recommending Sakura micron pens as I tried them and they show thru quite a bit. Highlighters also show thru. Was thinking to hilite vertically beside, and not along the paragraphs / verses. Yellow color may be preferable.

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Helped make fancy pasta for dinner with the Folks. Was tasty. American mindspace fighters thinking twice of bullying down and out Asians. I mentioned that losing the good fight is a feather in the cap of Satan some posts ago. Satan lays claim to America -how then would life be like? America is an important player in the ME.

Packing list, preparing for the eventual move from the Klang Valley…

I have drawn up plans for when we are encouraged to relocate. I can’t very well take everything. So I have decided to only take 5 things besides some clothes and shoes, other essentials.

1. I guess I will need my small travel guitar
2. Will also take my soccer ball and pump
3. Definitely my Nerf blaster
4. My NLT Bible
5. The best iPad I can afford

Will need to buy a medium small rucksack / backpack. And reinforce my guitar case with some cardboard.  I guess my soccer ball can deflate under my plane seat and the guitar into the cargo hold. The rest fit in the overhead. I will, I guess, be wearing 2 watches, one a cheap Casio. The other, maybe a Tissot -Mom’s gift. I need to prepare a better strap for it.

Other than these things, maybe some family gold in case of emergencies. I will probably buy an iPad Mini with cellular, trade in this iPad 10 and ditch my Oukitel phone.

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I bought a new wallet. It’s better than my old one. Fatter, and in cream color which speaks openly of wealth. I may need to pay for others thus need a full wallet. It also stores keys -amazing. Cost me RM26.26, bought on 26 of May 2026. What a synchronicity!

I may shortly come into some money, new friends, etc. I never guessed it was happening as I purchased it. 

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Am heading to the mall for lunch with the Folks. Tomorrow is the Hajj holiday so my parcels won't arrive until Thursday to Friday. Altogether, I spent circa 70RM. This leaves me 130RM spare cash which I have to ration out over June.

My cousins are coming over from Australia sometime June, IIRC. I guess I need to get some presents ready. A nice sketchbook would be good. Will do some shopping around.

I drew so many faces...

Mindspace happenings this Sunday night. (Now technically Monday). There was repentance and some sort of baptism going on. Some interference by witches (probably my old neighbors). But the reason for this post is to talk about creating art. It is not what you think.

Art takes study but when you study art, you cannot create it. Art takes practice but when you practice you cannot perfect it. Art takes style -your style, but without removing your style, you cannot produce it.

This seems absurd but it leads to one thing: your inner voice. Your inner genius, some call it, your calling to express your feelings. All artists have it, no matter level of skill, or otherwise.

For example, I started by drawing prophetic things. I had a drawing I called 'God', 'the Son', and 'the Spirit'. And also the 'girlfriend' of Jesus. Call me a heretic. But by drawing what I felt strongly of, I developed a style. From there on, I progressed from caricatures, to fine art with expressive pens and nibs.

I could not draw women (I am a man) at first, but soon, confidence came over me, and I was able, just by saying 'I will'. Then my mindset changed, one day, a connection was made, and I drew my first females by the spontaneous method, without thinking, just following the ink as it flowed on paper.

Some have asked me how to remove our initial style? For me, it was portraying the divine in my eyes -the profane. That exorcised my notion of what art was. For you, it might be different. Perhaps this is why in the west, they draw nudes and use real life models.

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It's now about 1am and nothing much has gotten done. No guitar practice, no coding eureka, no writing SDU.

By request, we have to explain how Jesus' blood covers all sin. The standard answer is he suffered so we do not have to. He prepared a place where we fit in perfectly, interior to ourselves and exterior as well. But if you have to know deeper, it is that God says there is no forgiveness without the shedding of blood. He is actually going to kill anyone who sins in front of Him. So the fact is that we need a protector, the perfect sacrifice to still the Lord's anger. And this is Christ -his only begotten Son.

Yes, God can be friendly and can be angry, strict and kind. He was both to Moses. Moses must have been special in His eyes. We must strive to be like the saints and patriarchs to gain God's admiration and love.

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Officially wrote a new good guitar song. It happens once or twice a month. Actually just a bunch of chords without words yet. I think it will be about homelessness and my struggle to earn a living. Billy thought he could work it better so we let him try. Chords are to be shared. Don't build a bigger barn. 

I would like to comment on some teachings...

One YouTube source, Pastor Aaron (from ATL), says we should keep all the commandments, not the whole Law itself, obeyed by the Jews, but all the commandments. Another, I forget the channel, says we should be transformed in our way of thinking which is in Matthew 4:17. Repent: 'Metanoeo' -which implies reconsider our mentality, forsaking those things that made us feel bad, 'For the kingdom of heaven is at hand'.

We also recall the wealthy man who had kept all the commandments but would not repent (sell his wealth and follow Christ). And we see what Repentance versus Law is.

I like to think that Jesus' passion / death and resurrection was the Kingdom fulfilled and his second coming will be the Kingdom come.

This is relevant because of the common teaching (thanks, Pastor Aaron) that Jesus died for our sins to be forgiven -all sins -for all time. This is odd unless we put 2 and 2 together -the Lord fulfilled the kingdom of heaven and those who believe(d) in him and did repent (metanoeo) could now enter into it. And it is a place of no sin.

But we are told that our bodies, un-resurrected, still want / fall into sin or temptation. But believing in Christ, the kingdom, and repentance opens the door to supernatural gifts of Spirit to overcome sin and do the will of God Most High. Believing in Christ is power to live a useful, guilt-free life. 

The only sign we will ever have -that we made the right choice, is that supernatural powers would now watch over us -those of us who repented, were baptized, and formed a relationship with Jesus and God. In essence, being in His Kingdom of the heart -the kingdom within.

Last of all, we give thanks and gratitude to the Lord in all we do -we worship Him. For we were made of His pleasure. More later...

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Heading out for lunch with the folks. Americans lashed out at key baby assets in the East. And I realized that worship / gratitude towards the Lord is what keeps us in 'metanoeo'. It is not thinking of the Law and commandments all the time. It is 'metanoeo'.

There seems to be something else going wrong regarding spirituality. I guess it's about that time when things blow up in our faces. Just to be measured and calm. Life is cheap, these end times. Had A&W for lunch. I paid for 3 of us, almost 50RM. The ambiance was nice, in a open airwell / airway of the mall.

To the westerners battling in mindspace, deceived by the evil Liew 6, we wish you luck in your struggle but it's time we stopped helping perpetuate troubles internally. I mentioned it several days ago and wrote earnestly on it, here on DogBlots. We urge you all to 'matanoeo'. Those among you who are good, I don't know what will happen to you, perhaps the evil will kill us all eventually. Be strong.

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Back to the religious theory. We were created. We have a Creator who wants to know us -as His creations. Likewise, we do nothing without thinking of Him. The culture of 'I am a god' had taken root since Babylon up to Rome, up to today when it moves under the surface of popular culture.

We also have a Messiah, Likewise a Holy Land. Likewise an unseen insidious Enemy. And because we disrespect God, killed His Messiah, and desecrated the Holy Land, we are IN TROUBLE. The spirit of disobedience is now a strong force. I urge everyone involved to think again. Expand your mindset to include Faith (that we have a vested destiny) and destroy Self-Righteousness (that we are little gods).

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I finally stopped the a/c outside my room from vibrating. It needed horizontal bracing. For now, it's just two plastic block feet wedged between the compressor and the wall. Dad caved to my plan to climate control the living room and the front two rooms as well, sealing off the dining area. This will give us plenty of comfort, enough for 3 people, during the heat of the afternoon and the still night's mugginess.

Not sure if I want to code this afternoon. It's not 4pm. Made some headway, getting the transistor o/p recognized. May need to do a double forward slash as well.

The a/c vibrations were pretty bad so I wedged in a cheap Decathlon rugby ball. Now much more quiet.

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Had roast chicken for dinner, store bought, and some bokchoy Mom picked up. I made a garlic olive oil dip. There were some arguments among our members and even among outsiders as the world shifts and new balancing mechanisms are needed in mindspace. I'm pulling out for now, until the supernatural phenomena begins to occur. No sense dying early, job for God, undone. Even now, the evil is trying to overcome our sanity -yes even as I type this.

A change of plan…

A week of laziness / prevention and suddenly I burst forth, drafting easy TABs for guitar, DiZi bamboo flute, and ocarina (12 hole Japanese). Would like to begin with the classical guitar, learn the scales and produce some modulations. I also coded n4s quite a bit, simplifying and correcting kludges, but the netlist is still not made up right.

Did my chores, sweeping and soon mopping. Will be having teochew duck for dinner. Been a while since we had duck and am quite eager for it. Mopping done. Turns out we’ll be having Chinese fried noodles instead. American babies, deceived by Liew witches, lashed out yet again. I don’t quite know why they are so moralistic. Perhaps a little talk will be good for them.

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Brushed, took my meds, and am preparing to sleep by 1am. Work out circa midnight. Need to loo but it can wait till tomorrow. I went 3 times today due to being backed up almost half a week previously. Friends dropped by to talk watches and my cousins were scolded to be more responsible and less influenced by evil spirits, to be a bit more charitable, and to be less jealous. Cousin, you are a man and your sister is a woman. We must behave well and receive God's grace.

 

By request, there is a call to understand the economy and what is the power of interest rates vs employment.

 

Inflation falls when UN-employment is high. Interest rates rise when inflation is high. Therefore interest rates rise when employment rises. The problem is that sometimes inflation is used to grab money without permission. Sometimes interest rates are kept lower or higher because of government policy. Without free market of INF and INT, there is a gap in employment opportunity equal to INF - INT.

 

The gap between INF and INT causes there to be too much liquidity which causes business activity to become circumspect / greedy / wasteful. This is where the employers fail to find the employees. Furthermore, without proper adjustment of INF / INT, whole skill sets can be lost from the economy as people do not fit the easy money and high lifestyle of the 'haves'.

 

I am asked to stop here.

 

The law of the free market breaks down when people are inconsistent and confused. Such that they began to vape and to buy Vespa scooters (I have been watching), and to drink more decadent coffee and snacks. The confusion among younger people and the pettiness of the older citizens causes the economy to stutter. IMHO, the Rukunegara is important as a unifier of Malaysians (other countries can do the same). Basic co-operation is required no matter who or where you are.

 

Should there be needs to micro-manage, then it should be done at state level with budget allocated according to performance of each state, not just to upkeep a state's social status above other states.

 

Micro managing by states has to do with MP and Exco members who must be more in touch with people who can move the economy, not with those who are facing hardship but those who can, with needs and some help, push the credit system forward. It is happening to me, from America right now, regarding my books.

Facing unexpected problems with n4s nodes again.