Cancer givers from my family…

Poorer relations given mental toys to entertain themselves. Innocently enough, to glimpse a brighter future. This backfired on everyone some of these guys knew as the players protected their future turf vehemently. And I wonder how they forgot about God and Heaven, while rising up on His wings, effectively. Perhaps they went a little mad.

Finishing the first half of chapter 8. There is a twist or two in it. And true, lots of side characters get to shine. Feeling a little down from my wayward relations’ attacks. May write later. Flute could arrive this afternoon. Must remember to pay for it.

My new flute has now reached the delivery hub. I should be able to get it today. Read my book to some Americans interested in transformative literature. They liked it. Told them not to waste money buying it, just get the eBook which is $3.99 and well-formatted by Partridge.

Mom and Dad were missing this morning. Not sure where they went. Had a humongous loo earlier. Not sure what the neighbors are thinking. I tried not to bother them, using the inner bathroom but it did ‘boom’ or ‘bong’ as last night, strange sounds came from my gut. Perhaps the work of evil witches.

This evening, expecting my cousin and uncle from the north. They’ve come for grandaunt’s wake. She passed on, our family’s favorite grandaunt, IIRC 2 days ago. I have nothing much to share with them. Maybe we’ll have pizza and Coke for supper.

Failed to order my traditional flute...

It wasn''t shipped for 2 days so I got a different one from Anson Music. Cost almost 80RM. Made good headway debugging net4spice. I need to search inside the node forming, to add additional relevant children. This means that I can't condense the node until after. Cool.

Liew witches threw a net of babies over us Christians, asking all sorts of questions. We froze LiLian’s hand into a claw. May take some hours to revert. Perhaps we won't let it, since she breached last night's deal.

American witches went berserk trying to find sins in me and were given the same frozen hand. I do pray they will lose their hand before I lose my hand -it's only fair.

Had chapfarn for lunch again. Tasty and healthy, with some bird's eye peppers. Feeling confused over the node-finding method. Since my stroke, it's been hard to think well. Watching the news while typing this. It's all coming true, parts and pieces, what God promised.

LiLian is going down at last from a gambit strategy, I lay down my life to take it up again. The TV2 afternoon news is on. Tomorrow,  I get a new flute. Can't wait.

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Helped Mom make roast chicken with Grill Mates BBQ sauce. Smells really tasty. I think it’s the bell peppers and chili flavor.

Rumors that Iran sank 3 American ships. Been watching YouTube and am amazed that much of the symptoms of nasty diseases match with what the evil witches are openly doing to my body, and failing for the most part. Most diseases seem to be a compounded effect of witchcraft. One niggle leads to another then bam! You have a condition leading to another and finally a life threatening disease.

I have decided to unload my 2 remaining copies of iS to BookXcess this weekend. If it’s a hit, they can order more.

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I have resumed writing SDU. Did about 800 words. Need to finish half the chapter by tonight but am being prevented. Want to write more characters into chp 8. Tell their interwoven stories, all while Derek breathes his last.

Just worked out and drank some soy milk to fuel the writing. Need another 800 words. Friday to publish chapter 8 here on DogBlots.

Was listening to Write Conscious on YouTube and Ian was talking about David Foster Wallace and the last of the great writers who spoke / wrote from their deep experiences and scars. He calls most of us 'nerds'. I once said society cannot be built on controlled chaos so in essence I agree with WC.

Well back to writing. 

Tomorrow, psych clinic at the hospital

Worked out and am feeling that cardio. I now do less, but more intense moves. Deep pushups and cross sit-ups. Took my meds early. Brushed. Now 10pm and time for a bit of coding.

 

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Did my morning routine and am now heading over to the psych dept.

 

Past 10am. Am back home. Process was pretty painless. Got my meds. Will be having lunch at home, takeout chapfarn. Have to work on n4s after a short rest. Need to get cleaned again in the afternoon, and change into fresh clothes.

 

Almost 9pm. Moved my Fedora laptop to the piano nook outside my room and switched the Ubuntu laptop to  the used old NEC display so I can watch terrestrial digital TV on the Viera I scavenged from Grandma's old house. She's now in a home and we're the only close relations living in PJ. Might as well take care of their TV. It also displays from my Pi Zero W running dietPi / mg / dwm /w3m.

 

Managed to get cleaned again and am feeling comfortable at last. Had been a week since I was backed up. Mom is often the cause of it. And I think Dad is bleeding again from somewhere.  

 

 

Was out to get a book...

Tried to find it but it was sold out. Not wanting to go home empty handed, I walked across to Decathlon and spent 39RM on a racket grip. The old one was fine until I sweated into it and it started peeling off. It was 15RM and lasted just under 2 years. This new one should last practically indefinitely, being natural leather.

It may be tomorrow, when I release n4s. Feeling lazy, bearing so much load from the telepathy wars. It seems to me that westerners are not very logical when it comes to spirituality which is odd because they brought spirituality to the east. And we, in the east much enriched their spirituality in return. We should be friends but as God says, the toes of clay and iron will eventually break apart under His attacks.

It feels odd, we, as a people, a nation, a planet, being scourged by God’s invisible hand. Perhaps even this blog post is part of His clandestine offensive.

We are surrounded and confused, and do what we want, or need to, rather than to plot against His takeover. The telepathy is getting weirder, with witchy Liews now impersonating high angels. Maybe later, Jesus himself.

But back to the Kuikma racket grip, it feels fine. Just the right amount of friction and smoothness. IIRC, leather doesn’t like moisture much so I have to not play with it with wet / sweaty hands and it should last until the end of the possible prophecy that I become a tennis coach.

This prophecy (fruits of the loom / flutes of the room) is only partially active, since Meng died decades back, just that it keeps being revived by those suffering for lack of Meng -he was my brother I failed to protect as a toddler.

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I was talking with David in mindspace and we’re inventing an ocarina notation system. Actually, being experienced, he’s doing most of the work with some other players. I wish I thought of the whole thing but I don’t play much.

My idea is to omit the diagram of shape and holes, and use a stylized symbol that looks like a plant stalk. David thinks he has the beans on how to change holes. My idea is to rotate the stalk through a stave-like structure. But anyhow, Dave will be teaching it as I can’t teach oc very well.

I also helped Andy with some score sheets for guitar. He’s into teaching and it might be of help. I can’t teach guitar so I shouldn’t be involved. Doing my part for the musician community!

I do believe music is one of the pleasures we will have in the Kingdom, alongside team sports. Somehow, reading / writing books isn’t one of them. Maybe coding will still be needed, IDK.

Having improved my algorithm, I now need to finish the app. There is some resistance. My TV box may arrive tomorrow. Hope it works. Apparently it can do HDMI out so I’ll be okay.

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Showered and changed. Did some work on the program. It’s still a little bit off. But I’m confident it will be fine tomorrow morning. LiLian and her blackmailed army still striking out. Hard to believe so many kids become evil when pushed by her and their frightened mothers.

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The mark of the Beast has been given out in mindspace as far as I know. It constitutes worship to the 1st beast, by law of the false prophet, second beast. The clue lies in ‘casueth to worship the image’, ‘power to make the image speak’. The meaning is we are in beast rule not yet fully realized, and the image is the false doctrine of telepathy. Later on, the mark will set in, and we will worship a man, an antichrist, as the Messiah.

How do I figure that? Would you as a Christian worship the antichrist? Never. But when you are all tied up by telepathy, and haven’t washed clean, but done sins instead, you will hope Jesus will forgive you and the AC, he will say your sins are forgiven if you physically pledge loyalty to me.

This must be the only reason it started in mindspace. 

How to get clean is simply to acknowledge that once talk always talk, once push always push. One blame always blame. Then say Jesus forgive me. You will be forgiven as with any sin. I was a junkie for adult entertainment. Jesus forgave me. I don’t turn away from sexy Twitter posts. Why blaspheme Christ’s sacrifice? He has made a room for me in the house of his Father and my quirks will no longer be sin. In time, these temptations will cease to have power over me, and I can be propped up as blameless.

 

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Woke up lateish. Managed to get cleaned well. Showered and brushed. Waiting for my parcel -the digital decoder for my TV. It was Dad's idea I get one. 35RM. I also ordered a Malay traditional flute -a seruling, for about 30RM. Over 10x cheaper than the master grade DiZi which I gave to my nieces. Hope it sounds good.

 

Today will be coding. I think I know what to tweak. Phone went dead overnight somehow. Will see if it charges. It updated itself with new AI features overnight, causing the drain.

Managed to get cleaned again, second time today. Hopefully, the final time. Tomorrow, psych clinic at the hospital to get my meds. Need to sleep by 10pm. Up at 5-6am. Will set an alarm.

Parcel is late. Now past 6pm. There was a horrible downpour earlier. Don’t expect it to arrive anytime soon. Will do a little coding later, then rest. Maybe work out at 9pm.

My set top box arrived circa 8pm. Had a bit of trouble wiring it up, dropping it several times. Now I have land / terrestrial digital TV here in the Klang Valley. Took my meds early and will work out at 10pm. Sleep by 11pm. Want to do a little coding now. Just 15 minutes.

Looks like today for n4s…

It will be a basic Python app, functional, but no bells and whistles. Unfortunately, many minds are pressing in, and it’s hard to work. Writing SDU should resume late tonight. Being pinned a tail on as the donkey, I doubt many will appreciate my efforts.

More westerners going mad, spurred on by the Liew witches they befriended. I wonder what happened to these once Christian nations?

Closing in on noon. Some small issues with n4s. I wonder if simulation output data can be kept and applied to a second stage? AI says it’s possible with numpy, which is fortunate.

Simulation almost runs except I need to change the node names so they don’t conflict with ngSpice which is the backend module I’m using. May take an hour to finish altering my code to use just underscores and no dots etc.

Taking a while. I have to define circuit.in, gnd, and out for the simulation to run. Then tonight, to link up 2 circuits and release n4s v0.1 at last. Not sure if I will do SDU today. No rush, tho.

Finally managed to simulate the circuit but something went wrong in the node generation (again) and the graph is poor, unlike the example I used for reference. Almost 9pm. I think I will write tomorrow, just debug tonight. I do want to release it circa 3am tonight.

Past 10pm, I have solved the circuit issue. Was just careless with quotes and missed a kOhm in a typo. Still have to track down the R1 going behind C1. That’s really weird to happen after all the precautions I took. Looks like I will wrap that up by midnight. Want to do stage 2 now. Test a second stage which I’ll scrounge from somewhere.

The second stage is in place to sim after midnight. Now am assembling a team to fight the Liew armies. And, early results are in, we are victorious as one church, one people under God, if you are Moslem or otherwise.

Now 11pm. Thinking of a light supper, then work out. Brush. Meds at midnight.

 

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1am, worked out and brushed. Take my meds soon. Had raw garlic in olive oil and soy with an instant vegan noodle for supper. I have been polishing up net4spice and am testing a second stage input-output. The node error earlier was not caused by faulty logic, but in failure to implement the algorithm fully -to encompass all the components sharing a junction -even the transistor. Looks like this will spill over to tomorrow morning when I implement a Numpy data store-release interface. Looks simple enough.

 

We broke up the violent and deceiving telepathy group led by LiLian and her army of witches. Not sure if it will hold. Trying to make it a win-win situation for all. And I am giving up some time to help it along.

 

2am and I am turning in shortly. Allen is still angry with America despite living there and working a business of his own.

 

3am, I copied the numpy code from Google AI as I have no idea how to use numpy and just wedged it into n4s. It should work come tomorrow. Barely able to write as it's time for bed yet again.

 

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Some setbacks. There are serious bugs in my code that cause sporadic errors. Am looking at it again. Simplifying then build it up fully again to see where I went wrong.

 

Also got a fresh tennis racket grip from Decathlon. 39RM, not cheap, but much more durable as it is leather. There is a line where I work at a tennis academy. Sports and music will still be big after the troubles subside and God takes over. I am quite good at DiZi flute and also at racket sports. My specialty is playing chord-like notes on the DiZi, as I have good ears, giving students basic pointers on tennis as I am observant, having taken some lessons before.

Other lines involve me being around the coast, working in tourist entertainment. I could also be among people involved in rebuilding the world economy from a small office here in PJ.

This is an old prophecy of ‘Fruits of the Loom’. My racket stringbed is ‘loomed’ / woven, and in Chinese, we say ‘Flutes of the Room’ of which I have one DiZi. In some way, I will have food and a place to stay -so the Lord blessed me.

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Been thinking of nodes. If a ComponentX is at rXc1, we have to check for all c1 that enters any CompZ

So c1 cX cZ are clumped. 

If ComponentX is at rXc2 or c3, we have to check for all c2/3 that exits any CompZ

So c2/3 cX and cZ are clumped.

If say a 4 component junction exists, then we will have to do 2 passes over it to form the node. Or any other node.

I ordered a TV set top box...

My salvaged TV is old so I need a digital antenna to analog set top box. Found one locally on Shopee for just $9. Hopefully can catch some matches from the World Cup this June.

LiLian and her forces are smiting us, just as Donald has declassified the UFO files. 'Our fight is not against flesh and blood, but powers and principalities of the Prince of the air'.

Coding is going well. I am now more aware of why the node numbering failed and am trying various 'clever' solutions.

I successfully strung  my C40 with the bit too short nylons from my Kepma. Didn't think it would work. Touch wood, they did. I don't think tying knots on your guitar strings is a good idea but I was a little desperate and definitely stingy. But the knots have plenty of loose end so I guess they'll hold. Sounds pretty decent. 

Already past 10pm. The bathroom light is still shorted out. Haven't read Not Here to Stay much more yet. An interesting beginning, I think, and a good book overall.

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Was just talking about how LiLian (the Liew witch daughter) used Biblical references to play out UMIST postgraduates while I was studying there. She did several groups of foreign and local students. Indeed the feet of clay and iron came apart.

Am still coding, now going well. I needed iterators for different classes of data -the transistor row, the referenced transistor(s), and the normal single i/o components. Quite an odd way of doing things.

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I now have the nodes for net4spice / n4s. Will proceed to the simulation stage after dinner. The way I did it was to define a junction by all the components connected to it, then simplify via Python's sorted and set functions. Had to do a main loop over the wired list, then for each component, do a scrape over the wired list. Then write to the node list. I began n4s in February and finished after 3 months.

The simulation is almost done. Need some regex to create the netlist statements. Will resume coding at 11pm, need a rest. Liew forces in disarray.

Brushed and took a shower. Will take my meds at 12:30am and work out after 1am. 

Past 2am. N4s is held up by how best to join select list elements from one long list. Liew forces pain-giving again.

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Almost solved the component properties thing. Then we can simulate, later, join circuit blocks, then that should be all for some time.

Liews attacked and were put away, dying in every cell of their bodies. Like I said, it is quite easy, telepathy is very dangerous when you’ve angered many people.

Some setbacks. Bugs in my code. Incomplete lists, perhaps the old node junction bug. Soon time to sweep and mop our shoebox. Will take a rest. Continue after dinner.

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Past 1am. Worked out. Took my meds, brushed. Feeling okay. Wearing my Promaster diver quartz. May venture out tomorrow on a long walk. Still tidying up net4spice. Problems with my loose and friendly data syntax. Nearly there but am too sleepy to code more.

I rearranged my table and some of my electronics...

I slept at 5am, waking after 5 hours. In an hour, planning to visit Kinokuniya to check out a book by a friend. It cost a whopping 90RM but to be fair, is quite thick and I would like to review it on my Medium.

Haven't had any inspiration to write SDU chapter 8. I guess I'm a little burnt out and should rest today. Still an hour till I head out. Maybe I will do a late outing rather than try to cram my life into fixed time slots. Go around dinner time. Want to play with my Pi Zero more.

Out of nowhere I wrote a song. Best in months. It's on Tumblr @donutwares and YouTube, ChenKuang YAP. Marks my return to steel strings. It wasn't really out of nowhere but to remember meeting someone nice. My ex-GF was jealous as it seems all such songs sound better than the ones I wrote for her. If she does arrive, I must remember to write the best.... which sometimes doesn't happen.