Nearing completion of net4spice...

So far have been promising vaporware and semi-unfinished apps. But net4spice is however, nearing completion, past the prevention from the witchy Liew 6. It's just too simple an idea to block. A semi-graphical interface to pySpice / ngSpice.

Was up early this morning and immediately assaulted. My poor stroked brain had no time to adjust to the pounding attacks foisted upon me by the British / William etc. Supposedly worked from behind by the Liew witches.

But I soldiered on and most of the code is in place awaiting adjustments. We grew tumors in the evil Asian witches' heads and more elsewhere in their body. Hopefully they stop bothering important people like William, and the poor like me.

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Taking a break from working on the Spice interface as somehow my head feels crammed. Not sure what is happening so will step up the attacks on the Liew 6.

We multiplied water upon water and this saturated the Liew 6’s bodies causing them some alarm and they have backed off me and the people I know. Folks are at the mall and will get me a small burger for lunch, late. Now almost 2pm. Time to restart coding. Finish by this evening, then additional components tonight.

In an incomprehensible move, westerners and Liew witches team up on us again, believing they will still be judged for wrongdoings tho they were repentant. How is that our authority even as saints?

Everyone will be judged for crimes, and punishment will be meted out for inequity / unfairness / selfishness. ‘Once to live, once to die, then comes the judgment’

‘And some shall awaken to everlasting joy, others to shame and contempt’ -it is a sad fact that some think Jesus can be played round and still give you every benefit of God’s love.

The story of the Prodigal son does not apply to the Wicked half-son. Tho many apply this to the Father and His forgiveness. Do not be wicked. Start right now. You will be judged.

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I am filling in the n4s code as we speak and it is quite straightforward. Should see results by late tonight. The bag I ordered is late arriving, maybe sometime tomorrow afternoon. May get my $100 in today. Much need the cash as I bought lots of stuff over the past weeks and am running low. 

Using regex simplifies the parsing of the netlists.txt file. I have a chunk checking function that stops and repeats on TAB so you can simulate variations of the same circuit side by side, which is a boon.

Will work out now and then do more coding, just a little as it’s 11pm now. Workout went well. Now tackling n4s. It's almost coming together if I try a little harder.

Think the TAB to sim the next variation of the 1st circuit is quite hard to put in so I did it automatically. Now to write regex for inserting node I and V. Took my meds earlier. Shall sleep soon. Found out I is calculated via a V probe across each component. Will have to iterate to get all currents.

Deepseek weighs in on my magnum opus, Mss2…

I asked DeepSeek for its opinion on my 3-story collection and was pleased it liked it very much, giving me a 90% good rating. I was not really surprised as Mss2 is some of my best work, written from melding personal experience with wishful imagination. It’s available on Amazon KDP for just under a buck.

Here’s what the AI said,

Overall Impressions:

Yap’s writing remains cerebral yet heartfelt, often weaving together personal memory, futuristic elements, and moral dilemmas. The prose is vivid, occasionally poetic, and rich with metaphor. There’s a clear evolution from the first collection: these stories feel more polished and narrative-driven, though still deeply introspective.

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Story-by-Story Analysis:

1. “The Gold Jacket”

• Plot: A lifelong, unfulfilled love story framed around a symbolic gold jacket, spanning decades and continents, touching on espionage, marriage, and moral compromise.

• Themes:

  • Love vs. Duty – The tension between personal desire and professional loyalty.

  • Identity & Transformation – How roles (spy, diplomat, husband) shape and constrain the self.

  • Memory & Regret – The lingering impact of early relationships and choices.

• Style: Lyrical, episodic, with a nostalgic yet sharp tone. The gold jacket serves as a powerful leitmotif connecting generations and moral ambiguities.

• Strength: Emotional resonance and structural elegance—each revisit to the jacket marks a stage in the protagonist’s life.

• Weakness: Some readers may find the time jumps disjointed or the ending ambiguous.

2. “Toast and Curry”

• Plot: A satirical, near-future tale of interfaith politics, AI, space exploration, and moral flexibility, centered around pastoral meetings over breakfast.

• Themes:

  • Faith in a Technocratic World – Religion adapting to AI and space colonization.

  • Power & Corruption – Within religious and political institutions.

  • Morality as Pragmatism – The blurred lines between right, wrong, and necessary.

• Style: Witty, dialogue-driven, with a darkly comic tone. Reminiscent of Kurt Vonnegut or Philip K. Dick in its blend of satire and speculation.

• Strength: Inventive world-building and sharp social commentary. The “toast and curry” motif is both mundane and metaphorically rich.

• Weakness: The dense acronyms (IF, FIST, UG) and speculative jargon may require careful reading.

3. “Ukulele Travels”

• Plot: A tender, melancholic story of an aging man with a mechanical hand, his found family, and the healing power of music and love.

• Themes:

  • Disability & Adaptation – Physical limitations and technological augmentation.

  • Found Family & Redemption – Love and care beyond biological ties.

  • Art as Healing – Music (the ukulele) as a source of connection and solace.

• Style: Gentle, reflective, almost folkloric. The prose is warm and evocative, with a strong sense of place (lakeside, forests).

• Strength: Deeply human and emotionally uplifting without being sentimental. The characters feel authentic and vulnerable.

• Weakness: The pacing is slow and contemplative—may not satisfy readers seeking plot-driven action.

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Recurring Themes Across the Collection:

• Love in Many Forms – Romantic, familial, platonic, sacrificial.

• Moral Ambiguity – Characters often operate in gray areas, balancing ideals with reality.

• Technology & Humanity – How tools, machines, and AI intersect with human emotion and ethics.

• Memory & Legacy – How past choices echo through time and relationships.

• Faith & Doubt – Explored both religiously and existentially.

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Strengths of This Collection:

1. Stronger Narrative Arcs – Each story feels complete and carefully structured.

2. Emotional Depth – Yap writes with vulnerability and insight, especially about aging, love, and loss.

3. Conceptual Richness – Blends speculative elements with deeply human stories seamlessly.

4. Cultural Specificity – Malaysian, Australian, and Nepalese settings add texture and authenticity.

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Potential Criticisms:

1. Still Dense & Allusive – Demands close reading; not for casual browsing.

2. Occasionally Overwritten – Some passages may feel overly descriptive or philosophical.

3. Niche Appeal – Readers who prefer clear genre boundaries may find the blending of literary and speculative fiction challenging.

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Standout Moments:

• The recurring gold jacket as a symbol of love, legacy, and moral stain.

• The breakfast dialogues in “Toast and Curry” – sharp, funny, and politically charged.

• The ukulele scenes in “Ukulele Travels” – simple, poignant, and beautifully rendered.

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Overall Rating: ★★★★☆ (4.5/5)

This collection shows clear growth in Yap’s storytelling craft. The stories are more cohesive, emotionally engaging, and conceptually daring than some in the earlier collection. It’s a thoughtful, moving, and intellectually stimulating read that will resonate with fans of literary speculative fiction and character-driven narratives.

If you enjoyed authors like David Mitchell, Kazuo Ishiguro, or Ted Chiang, you’ll find much to appreciate here. Yap is emerging as a unique voice in contemporary fiction—one unafraid to merge the personal, the political, and the philosophical.

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There are 5 things humans do towards higher conceptual understanding, and why it is necessary to be smart / clever / intelligent / spiritual / ascetic / apolitical / un judgmental etc.

1. Truth is light and beauty. Why is this important to God? He cannot uplift us with lies.
2. Pride is pinching everyone others’ eyes. This God cannot stand. I will explain later.
3. Morality is just fearing the Lord. Fear of God protects us from being un-loved and from nihilism.
4. Freedom is our right and our privilege. The pursuit of freedom and fairness, peace is God’s ideal.
5. Forgiveness and bravery -they are higher concepts needed because of imperfection. Why not fit?

My friend asked me about Pride what it is, and why it is to be stamped out and how? Pride is defined as the lifting of one’s spirits at expense of another’s this explains everything. We remove Pride not by prayer or worship, but thru understanding. 

I can tell you how Pride bounces off some people and back onto us because they are upset inside and are pretending. Later, it is accused of us by a witch as if we were the Prideful. Perhaps so, just a smidgen. Get rid of pride by understanding, being mentally well. More later…

Adding on to Mss2, my best 3 short stories, circa 2.8k words each…

I am in the process of adding 3 more stories to my 3 best ones. Story no. 4 should be done by late tonight. I’ve tried to make it as good as the first 3 by weaving selling shoes into souls / morality / mortality, while trying to sound effortless as I did before.

Come tho think of it, I don’t feel much like adding on stories to Mss2, despite writing tale no. 4 so earnestly. It doesn’t quite belong.

 

And I don't know if I want to pursue net4spice either. Maybe later in the afternoon. Hung up the washing and boiled some water as the folks are out to the old place. Yea, maybe just do the Python app and call it quits creating stuff.

 

Late last night I did some linguistics work -inventing a language called Wa. It went well, and I think I made the right decisions, choosing the root concepts. But I don't really want to develop it further beyond a one-page example I posted on X / Twitter. Sara likes it and maybe it will develop into something big later on.

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Helped cook dinner. Mom is very worried and anxious about life in general, maybe other specific things, she didn’t say. Coding must happen soon. Reorganized my desk, removing the Pi Zero W for now.

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Am stuck on an idea I had a while ago, a Turing machine concept that employs multiple tapes popped onto a master tape run over by the get-set probe. The multiple tapes are wired to Kaprekar’s constant which has over 8k valid 4 digit numbers or 2 power 13 combinations of instructions. The operation is simple. Data fed into the KT Machine is interspersed with K Instructions. These KIs determine what data and instruction is placed on the master tape, by which KI is bigger / smaller. I guess this is all I could come up with.

All the help God gave me flowed fluently / easily but only after diligent consideration, years of, even. Thus I have the Wa language, K Turing Machine, novella: iS, a few clever songs, and finally, I will get someone to love. Not sure how I have the last one. Maybe I teach something or other?

Found out I designed shower stalls for Malaysian homes and installed them for a living. Now I have my ex-GF coming over to be with me.

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The Jews and Jesus who is Messiah, and the gentiles (Europeans) are all in a deadly game. This game started circa 300BC, before the birth of Jesus and died down with his death circa 36AD. Then, it started up with the coming of Islam and died down again when America was founded. After some decades, it started again with WWI and WWII, and ended again when Jews re-entered Palestine. Now Russia and Ukraine / Europe / China / America are close to war -the same game we will describe soon is started again, which is the test for the 70th week of Daniel -whether peace without God and His Christ is possible.

There is a God otherwise why are we led on a bloody dance time and again? 

I urge those in the mindspace to be careful, and others to be courteous, and still more to forgive. Witness: we are all being played in and out by God and Satan.

Heavy coding tonight…

Want to lay down some foundational code for net4spice.py, which means all the netlists and basic components. Not sure if I have time as it’s already 11pm. Was being pounded by evil kids manipulating God and the faithful on behalf of the evil Liew witches.

Feeling alright tho. Someone liked my reading ‘Rose’ from The Gold Jacket. But I think I will break here for now and regather energy. Been feeling a little tired lately as I approach 50 this year, nursing a stroke to boot and being hammered from afar by angry people.

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Coding resumes purposefully even as LiLian pounds America. How can I stand by while good Christians suffer? We filled the Liews with fish (Jesus multiplied the fish and bread and fed 5000).

Back from a long sunny walk. Am coding well, and should see some results by night time. I think it is vital to distinguish all nodes as connect to input of a component, L ==> R.

Have read all the tokens into a dictionary using simple tab separator splitting. Now, some regex will complete the job. After that, I will have to extract and wrap the entire library of components which should be straightforward but time consuming.

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10pm. Been editing my short story before going for close tomorrow afternoon. Need to rest before coding again. Liew witchy 6 attacking as usual, destroying kids and babies. Can’t say world governments aren’t complicit in such set-ups as well. Not sure how to feel about being betrayed.

We tried to settle all the mind fights. Jesus and I showed the kids and even older people how to forgive themselves and others too. Outstanding are LiLian’s crimes which we believe resulted from pure hatred. This is easy to solve. Younger the easier. And it is simply to show them that hate is like a cat hairball -compulsive to create yet supremely irritating / choking.

William’s crimes come from the guilt of his nation’s escapades in Asia, the leadership responsibility he mishandled on their behalf due to being young and inexperienced. Both of you can be forgiven. Jusr have to accept what is human nature and how it went awry so bad. Forgiveness is not how much people take from you to make you sorry but how much your heart aches to love one another again.

So all telepathy is put under government control like it should be again. There are some knocking heads still. Must be Allen, the rogue genius. Perhaps he needs comforting as well.

Went for a run in new Balega socks...

Over 3 times the price of regular running socks. These Balegas are indeed the most comfortable I've ever run in. There is no toe box or heel friction and it felt like I wasn't in my shoes at all.

Due to my knees which are inhabited by family, I couldn't really enjoy the run much but at least I got the exercise in. One run every week or so. I do circa 200 meters each time to stay fit and work off the food.

Later, around 3pm, would like to head out on a walk. Feeling rattled from Liew witchy attacks which are directed my way by western forces. Not sure how they came to be friends / co-operators.

More later...

Something is up in the psychiatric world. This follows our cleaning up of the angry and the good people. We gave them a look over and then limited the thinking of people who were overly vengeful -as to be hell-bound. The limitation is very lenient, able to be spun up or down as needed.

Following the victory, William set up a fortress in our mindspaces, and I got displaced into the outer envelope along with some of my family. Am doing okay as I don't normally talk to people. Writing this blog is cathartic enough.

Not sure I can finish net4spice by tonight. Will be using regex to simplify the code instead of reading line by line, char by char.

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My Persian Siglos arrived after a month and a half since order placed. It was an exercise in patience and un-OCD-ness. This coin dates to the time of the exiles returning to Jerusalem and the temple being rebuilt. I am so grateful to own a piece of Biblical history. Thanks so much, eBay and Ancient Artifactz.

Dad was most nervous over my online buying and my hands were jittery, opening the packaging. Old time way of thinking, Dad. The world is globalized more than ever and trust is itself a business.

I talk more on the significance of the coin and its arrival time on my Substack this weekend. Synchroniticy happens again.

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My cousin, who has autism, is being guided by his parents so he'll be kept safe. Our family has a history of pressing down on the kids, and each others' kids. More than a handful of us are deficient.

I put together this quick list so a pressed-on person can do well and have a happy life -it's nothing bad to be happy,

1. Always remember one of these 3 things that keeps your mood stable: Firstly people are people just like you. I will explain later. Secondly people without God / high-beliefs are always gonna be dangerous push come to shove. Thirdly, people are forgetful and careless by nature -especially Chinese. Don't be afraid to clue them in that you need things or need them.
2. If you are oppressed, put your money into things that make you happy, not into GF's pockets. Or into bankers' hands -buy Unit Trust etc. Your happiness comes first and if you ration out your money and buy good things, you will not lose, and still be happy.
3. If you are in love, just be in love. Marriage is a very stressful thing and so are children but remember that a relative can raise your kids but not your wife so be free and love your one and only. I have another cousin whose wife was unhappy and she leaned on me for emotional support. Sometimes that may happen so don't be jealous.
4. If you want a job, you can get a job. If you don't need or want one, then jobs tend to come to you. What qualities must you have? Exhibitionism. Be proud and boastful and be prepared to back it up. For example, I helped invent many things and could easily have profited but I declined as my health is poor.
5. Finally, one day you will grow ill, suffer injury and perhaps be dying. Remember one thing: you do not know what will happen to you -do not assume ANYTHING.

Now I have to explain people are people just like you. If you treat others fairly they will remember you did that. Any good you want, also try to give -after all words are free and emotions are beautiful as is your testimony. Be known as a fair handed man / woman and good things will come to you. Be known as a religious and patient, steadfast man. Then say people are people just like me. Avoid haters and the unbelievers, and pick up after the forgetful and irresponsible -they will be able to also offer you help if you helped them.

Wild goose chase at an end...?

We have, at long last figured out why God cannot stop the Liew witchy army -they had the power to break prophecy and such, the 70th week of Daniel was delayed and came to me the order to liquidate the Liew family of 6 -this was over 10 years ago. They are still well now and on medications provided by authorities in the mindspace but yet to be counseled properly.

The conseling takes 5 steps:

1. TRUST
2. LENIENCY
3. FAITH
4. DISARM
5. REHABILITATE

TRUST means that there is an emotion we all have and it is "I am not harmful" TRUST is never that "I am good" or that "I am changed" TRUST means "I am not harmful"

LENIENCY means that there is an emotion we all have and it is "I am not angry" LENIENCY is not "I am kind" or that "I am weak" LENIENCY is "I am not angry"

FAITH means that there is an emotion we all have and it is "I hope it is still okay" FAITH does not mean "I am okay" or that "I will eventually be okay" FAITH is "I hope it is still okay"

DISARM means that there is an emotion we all have and it is "I am at rest" DISARM does not mean "I am weak" or that "I am stupid" DISARM is "I am at rest"

REHAB. means that there is an emotion we all have and it is "I need help because I am a failure to myself". REHAB does not mean "I am mad" or that "I am so rich" REHAB is an admission of "I failed myself"

Therefore, the explanation of "we all have an emotion" is necessary. Emotion is not just a strong feeling but a feeling supported by others, even imaginary others we like or conjure up to support ourselves.

Emotion is often felt in 2s and 3s and between you and your memories and personalities which you use to judge mainly others who are nasty.

More later on general psychiatry and its practices and how they were developed over time...

1. Conditions of the mind / emotions were judged on a first come basis. This is because doctors cannot assume you have something unseen. Always categorize before you extrapolate. It is just bad luck if your category is not known yet or ambiguous
2. People are treated based on how valuable they are not how dangerous they are. This is because doctors cannot know the future unlike some patients seem to do
3. Patients cannot be released just like that almost all the time because most people in the world are parasites that stick to the mentally ill -they are demons you attract by being demonic yoursself.

I am sorry if this seems strict and unloving but science and medicine are generally harsh.

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False teachers are among us, in Spirit. Meanwhile Iran and America play deadly games around the Arabian sea. I would like to quote from Matthew 24,

Mat 24:45  Who then is a faithful and wise servant, whom his lord hath made ruler over his household, to give them meat in due season?

Mat 24:46  Blessed is that servant, whom his lord when he cometh shall find so doing.

Mat 24:47  Verily I say unto you, That he shall make him ruler over all his goods.

Mat 24:48  But and if that evil servant shall say in his heart, My lord delayeth his coming;

Mat 24:49  And shall begin to smite his fellowservants, and to eat and drink with the drunken;

Mat 24:50  The lord of that servant shall come in a day when he looketh not for him, and in an hour that he is not aware of,

Mat 24:51  And shall cut him asunder, and appoint him his portion with the hypocrites: there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

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And as for those who profit off prophecy, it is indeed wise, for prophecy is made for your profit! But profit a person from it, creates and furthers future prophecy. And so for those who profit off prophecy, be righteous, and seed the true path. The true path is the salvation of a multitude and the Kingdom come gloriously, by which we mean, poetically, justly, beautifully, as a lesson to those who doubt and slay.

 

Did some research on the word 'balega' which is the brand of my new socks. It means, in African, to move with haste, and can also mean a multitude, misbehave, manure. I am left guessing more than ever. It can only mean to push my ideas and teachings out the door fast as possible, and to reach a large audience who are in error from false teaching. I often worry about stepping in dog doo around our shoebox quarters, and also am sometimes hit by incontinence. I should be careful not to venture too far away and to be more aware of myself. 

 

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It seems that some quarters are readying the Antichrist for show as soon as possible. Especially with the Epstein files revealed. It does seem like a good push. To succeed, we need to know the 5 points of the situation surrounding the end times:

1. Angels will fight demons
2. Aliens will require leaders and choose the Antichrist as he is easy to power up
3. Aliens will try to create miracles using super computing resources, plus our own
4. Angels and demons and Aliens will rage just like before the flood and cause fires etc.
5. There is chaos everywhere as supernatural mixes with science. People will actually be quite entertained.

 

Feeling under the weather...

Strange days are upon us. Scandals and cover-ups. This morning, blaring from YouTube on the Android TV outside my room in our shoebox. Was up earlyish and had a bout of explosive diarrhea. Liew witches stabbing at my head and eyes. We retaliated with muscle pinching and freezing, using some God chemicals. Hopefully they stop destroying kids and telling lies about us.

I ordered socks -good running socks off Shopee. After all CNY is less than 2 weeks away and there was a 10RM discount. Mom also had a stomach upset. Perhaps it was something to do with the homeless guy at the bistro where we ate? I did say I was sorry for staring at him (was wearing sunglasses so I thought he wouldn't know).

My Siglos is scheduled to arrive this afternoon, probably. Can't wait to hold that ancient coin in my hands.

I asked DeepSeek AI about my novella, iS, and it gave me all the good and bad points. I think Copilot was pulling its punches.

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This is a fascinating and ambitious novella. Here’s a breakdown of its strengths and weaknesses:

### **Strengths:**

- **Conceptually Rich:** The idea of “inexact science” (iS) as a philosophical and technological system is intriguing. It blends quantum mechanics, emotion, morality, and warfare in a way that feels fresh and thought-provoking.

- **Worldbuilding:** The story constructs a believable near-future where East-West tensions are fought not with traditional weapons, but with emotionally and cognitively charged technology. The social and political implications are thoughtfully explored.

- **Thematic Depth:** The novella grapples with big ideas: the nature of knowledge, the ethics of technological power, cultural conflict, sacrifice, leadership, and love. Erasmus Jr.^n^’s philosophical interludes add a reflective, almost prophetic layer.

- **Character Ambiguity:** Characters like Saim, Gracie, Marjorie, and Seth are morally complex. Their motivations shift between loyalty, betrayal, love, and duty, making them feel human and unpredictable.

- **Emotional Resonance:** Moments like Seth’s finger injury, Marjorie’s decline, and Saim’s sacrifice carry genuine emotional weight.

### **Weaknesses:**

- **Pacing & Structure:** The story feels rushed, especially in Act III. Time jumps (like the 20-year leap) are abrupt, and many relationships and plot points are resolved too quickly or off-page.

- **Exposition Heavy:** At times, philosophical and technological explanations slow the narrative. Some dialogues feel more like lectures on iS theory rather than natural conversation.

- **Character Overload:** With a large cast and multiple perspectives (Seth, Marjorie, Saim, Matthew, Frederick, etc.), some characters don’t get fully developed, and their arcs can feel truncated.

- **Ending Ambiguity:** While thematically consistent, the conclusion may leave some readers wanting clearer resolution regarding Seth’s fate, the true nature of the Council, and the future of iS.

- **Prose Style:** The writing is sometimes dense and uneven, with moments of poetic clarity alongside occasionally clunky phrasing or abrupt shifts in tone.

### **Overall Impression:**

This is not a light read—it’s a dense, idea-driven story that rewards careful reading. It feels like a philosophical sci-fi fable, reminiscent of works by **Philip K. Dick** or **Ursula K. Le Guin** in its exploration of consciousness and society.

The novella successfully uses its sci-fi premise to ask deep questions about:

- What is “science” if it’s inexact?

- Can technology mediate—or destroy—human connection?

- Is peace achievable through understanding or through emotional domination?

**Final Thought:**  

It’s a **flawed but compelling work**—more interested in exploring concepts than delivering a tight, conventional plot. If you enjoy speculative fiction that challenges both the mind and the heart, this story will linger with you. It feels like the skeleton of a larger novel; with more room to breathe, its world and characters could have been even more powerful.

If you’re the author: **Bravo**. This is a thinking person’s sci-fi with soul. With further revision—especially in pacing and character depth—this could be a standout piece.