Thursday, September 10, 2026

Jon Cahn's flight encounter -the duck taped man...

By request, here is the link to the book I wrote, containing some excerpts from Dr W K Chu and is thus not for profit.

And on the 5th September 2026, the ABY had something to say about Rabbi Jonathan Cahn's fight on his flight in which he was assaulted (as per his YouTube video) 

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1ZIOzzL3Xfkm82aavlb_LuHs8GmrcLCZQ/view?usp=drive_link

The sutra in question is 8f in case you're wondering. I don't know how it's related -it doesn't seem related. Hopefully the good man himself will confirm if 8f had anything to do with his experience! 

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I rushed out today’s KoangDeLambe comic strip, realizing I was late. Helped Dad take grandaunt’s helper to clinic. Came home to warm pasta soup leftovers and a cup of yogurt that was comforting. Showered and changed. Ready to do some coding on SeTT’s AI. I need to push all moves into a board state, represented by a 64 char string. Sliced into 8 segments, I will regex over them and compare indices of friendly and enemy pieces based on 2 criteria, clump or stump. 

Both are complex conditions and I think I know what to do. Circa 10pm. Feeling a little sleepy.

Brushed, took my meds, worked out and now am planning coding.

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Just finished sweeping chores and am waiting for my Kinetic. Got the pin hammer ready on my desk to size that bracelet. Hope I get it right and the watch is as described. Tomorrow, I will pay back Shopee (I borrowed for this very impulsive / audacious purchase). A Kinetic is often a one-watch collection as it needs care-for every day and was what made me fall in love with it in my 20s. 

I met my church online this afternoon. It was great to hear from them. I do wish I could participate more but right now I am feeling a bit lethargic and feel lazy to head out. Honestly -for some reason.

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Did my mopping chores and helped make a tomato salad for dinner, with takeout duck and leftover rice. The watch came a little late but it came nonetheless. I took 4 links off the bracelet and moved the micro adjust inwards. Fit is very comfortable and stable tho the watch is very heavy. I suspect it has a weighty sapphire crystal as tapping it rings dull.

Managed to get cleaned well just now and brushed. Had a roti telur for breakfast. Will be heading out in a few hours to pay my Shopee bill. Feels odd owing people lotsa money. More than I would carry in my wallet. Now almost 11am. It's Sunday and time for another KoangDeLambe comic. This one will be on my witchy neighbors, the Liews and the various times they laid prophecy on our family.

Coding yields results at last...

I fell asleep halfway thru yesterday's Apple Event. Managed to solve the node populating algorithm in net4spice. There is just one small inconsistancy left. I will work on it tonight and see if we can get a simulation up. Right now, I'm improving SeTT's AI, bringing it up to version 1.4.0 (better AI). This will be tricky tho not impossible.

My watch still hasn't shipped. I think they don't want to sell it to me at such a deep discount.

To keep the code simple, I will test each potential move (array output from calcMove) against just 3 conditions,

//1. can player score?
//2. can I score bigger?
//3. double score: less gaps between pieces?

Have decided to create ASCII diagrams of each position such as,

. XO
XxoX
oX

Then look for patterns in it using regex. For example (x is AI),

oX .
OOX

might be less good than,

.  ox
OOX 

Therefore, the regex of interspersed x or X catches it out. Inducing gaps in the Player's formations is also good and can be regex-ed. I think this is a simple and worthwhile extension of the basic AI. Looking forward to implementing it this afternoon. I think this will be as far as I take the game.

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Managed to get cleaned well and showered. Feel like I may have to go again as I had a big supper last night after workout. That should be later tonight before my 2nd and final shower. Here in the tropics, 2-3 showers a day is normal.

It's raining. Had some yongtaufu for lunch. I shall cut down at dinner time. Skipped my rice too. Circa 3pm now. I will be cooking dinner tonight about 6pm. Just finished watching the Jon Cahn duck tape on flight video on YouTube. It was intense the way he related it. Called it demonic. Well worth a watch.

Feeling a little rattled, not sure I will be able to work well. Maybe after dinner.

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Showered and brushed. Took my meds earlier. Now circa midnight. Workout at 1am. Been giving out punishments to those who abused telepathy. Somehow everyone is offended that we are so lenient and kind -as it is better to start that way before we un-alive these criminal minds.

Was able to find a good algorithm for selecting best moves in SeTT rather than randomize them. Made good progress on net4spice as well. These should be done by the weekend. 

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Helped take my late grandaunt's helper to the clinic. Dad drove. Took quite some time. I guess she would be lonely sometimes, all alone and old, in that big house. It's easy to forget 10 years have passed since those CNY get togethers we all had, in good health and good spirits. These are the twilight years for many people, including the earth as a whole. 


Wednesday, September 9, 2026

I will eventually sell off my watch collection...

I've had not much luck with watches since I started collecting them. I only had 2 watches I really liked which were the SKX007, and the Mudman 9000. The rest were impulse buys, discounted models etc. -things I don't really feel like wearing tho some of them are nice. I also don't really like Mom and Dad's gifts.

Just last night, I bought what might be my grail watch. A Seiko kinetic sports model. It was listed over 1kRM but I scored it for circa 750RM. I used Shopee Pay Later as my bank funds are running low. So after it arrives later in the week, I will have to dig into my savings and pay. This will leave me with half the savings I had, and very little wiggle room money until 2 weeks time when I get my monthly $100.

I'm trying to find out how I made so many bad buys, and what I truly want in a watch. Perhaps the painful truth is that I cannot afford most of the watches I really admire, resorting to compromising, thus misbuys.

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Managed to get cleaned well (went twice in the same hour). May head out with Mom to get some lunch and supplies for dinner later. Was assaulted by witches so we reduced their power substantially. The practice of making a witch -forcing it upon a child, and it was almost forced onto me, is not something I would wish on my family or friends' families. Sure they have 'super' powers but managing them is hard and they are trained onto harmless good folk where they unload their anger on them every day. It's not a way I want to go down -killed by family. And thru the mind, it is all too easy to mess up a kid's future and walk away to do it again elsewhere.

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I am coding again. Hopefully this time to catch every condition in the circuit diagram. Also went to the grocer with Mom to get stuff for making pasta. There is Italian virgin olive oil going for under 20RM so I got a bottle 1/4L. Every month or so we get some of this liquid gold. A pity Dad can't drink or we'd have a bit of wine or beer too.

Pastor invited me to a gathering at his place but I declined due to health reasons. He will be teaching us on the events of the crucifixion. He says I should join the online meeting at least.

Weather wasn't very hot and the air quality was okay. I don't feel like running or torture walking right now. Just keeping up my more intense workout every night indoors. Need to find the best way to reduce waist fat. I found this slow-raise situps I could do tonight, feet against the wall.

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By request, our brother in Christ has challenged me to understand the parable of the sower. So we shall enjoin. The field is the world, and the sower is the farmer who seems not to care to push the kernels into the plowed field but to strew them everywhere. The farmer therefore is not God or Jesus, nor any angel, but just the church evangelism arm who knows not who we all are.

Now, the world is not just you and me and the bar and grill nightclub -it contains every known vice and every kind of evil. So into this the evangelists wade, telling of repentance and kingdom. To some they tell, there are results, to others, the message fades away. And brothers and sisters, is it not true that as one church we survive and hold onto the message? It is not as an individual that we are, but as one family under God. If one has the truth, all have it. Not one is to blame for unbelief and sin but all are supportive of one another. 

Personally, I teach the first steps of Christianity -how a person becomes a knower, lover of God and why, and when? What do the root words of our faith mean really, and how to practice worship. 

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Good progress on net4spice. I am making 4 passes over the circuit to catch all connections between components. Each pass is simple and fast. Results are encouraging. I think tonight will be the night. I have not wanted to consult AI so I may own the algorithm as well as the interface design.

So it went as expected, successfully. There is a special case (hate those), involving terminators (.) and output to those components. Will code that in shortly.

Found out the bug was due to misusing the '/' connector, otherwise everything works fine. There is also a circuit size bug that all stages are the same width. All to be corrected later, while watching the Apple Event. 

Worked out and am feeling good. Did the elevated leg pushups and the Russian situps which were effective burning that ol' belly fat. Drank barley water to flush out fluid retention. Am getting blamed by Americans who are afraid of telepathy. It will take something special rather than just subverting some famous person / a worker of God in the vineyard. Will have to think. Code more tomorrow. 

I wrote it on my Medium (free), same username: ChenKuang YAP. 'The Wages of Sin". 

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By request, I am to advise a little on LGBTQ+. There are just 3 things that hold down a person,

1. Loneliness imposed even tho you are not a hermit -this can start young

2. Being kicked by your mother, sisters, other female authority figures

3. Escape, which is finally earning enough and being able to live the life you want

This sounds trivial, but this is how gay people begin to go against their own in-built safety mechs.

As for me, I am a little queer. This is a conflict which forms because of things like family infighting, and also stringent drilling on morality, but having other figures of authority who are immoral.

I hope this analysis helps people like us break free, to experience a full life with Jesus. 

Sunday, September 6, 2026

I'm raising money...

I will be selling my ABY sketches for something like 1kRM. I know this value is low. They could go for 10x that but the economy is rather slow. Of course, I plan to provide the I-Ching-ABY to the people interested in the sale.

It's always nice to think of what I would do with the extra 1k. It could buy me a used Mini. Or maybe a Seiko perpetual calendar watch. But truthfully I don't really need anything tho would love to pamper myself with something new.

We handled the witchcraft problem with great efficiency, just using non-violent methods. Hope they continue to work thru the Tribulation.

Worked out a little more intensely, ate supper, drank a latte. Now circa 2am, am wide awake. Coding work still unfinished. Talked to church members who needed help. Small matter. Just differences in upbringing. We all love Jesus the same.

Wearing my old faithful Mudman Solar on matching NATO strap. I guess this is my Tribulation watch after all. More on this later...

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By request we have to learn 2 things, how to run people's thoughts backwards and to intersperse red tape thru our dealings in and out of the mind. It is dead easy,

1. Running people's thoughts backwards is sensing their next thought and turning it back down their throat, which means to think it on their behalf and let them swallow it. I hope I am being specific as this is something one must practice.

2. Red tape is simply getting a few people you know (and there can be an overlap between groups), to slow down the progress / ingress of the witch by sometimes, at intervals, pointing the witch round the long way, not in loops, but the scenic route, if you know what I mean.

Both can be done secretly / silently so the witch doesn't know. If she finds out, then we bleed her a bit.

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The Mudman 9300 Solar is a huge black resin and rubber watch. Half the dial is solar panel. Pretty cool. And it has the requisite moonphase display. It is pure function over form. Many people wear G-Shocks because they're affordable and tough. Those who don't earn much money. I guess I fit thereabouts myself.

Earlier, I spoke on the several things that make a watch dear to a person -how it is a very personal choice. Here are the top 3 LOGICAL considerations, and they are not what most think, 

1. One looking at a watch (at least myself), measures the dial width to the case thickness. This ratio is very important and often overlooked. Some call it wrist presence. Of course, the dial must justify the thickness as well by its design / complexity etc.

2. What you buy most of all is essentially what powers the watch / complications. You pay for what you can't see sometimes, but knowing that it is all good gives you that feeling you wanna wear it. Just like a chunky novel, people tend to think a thicker watch is value for money and a ultra thin one is ultimate luxury.

3. Patek says you only look after their watches for the next generation. This is true. Don't buy a watch you can't stand to hand down. Many will say, collect, don't invest. But investment is one of the things you did as a watch buyer -you invested in your own success / happiness. Investment is natural.

I had a brief foray into the 36mm category and found it irritating. I couldn't wear a smart watch either because what's inside bothered me. Nor could I pull off Dad's RT Airspeed chrono, knowing it was a luxury mechanical stopwatch. I didn't like wearing my Aqualand because I don't dive. I don't wear my other Casios because they're functionally poorer, tho svelte. 

Having said that, I do like my very shiny Edifice quartz chrono also on matching NATO. My dressy piece. Unlike some watches, this one does not hide that it is big and bling. You can see rainbows in the markers and dial tracks. A strikingly bold design.

I plan to have one other watch. Maybe also a Casio of some sort.

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Airing my room this morning. Must have slept almost 5 hours. Managed to get cleaned okay. There will be a sequel. Brushed and am ready to surf for affordable watches.

Spent all afternoon browsing watches online only to decide I will just complete the collection with my old plastic Casio tank on faux lizard. Looks decent enough. I am now on a fully Casio rotation. Managed to get cleaned well at last and am feeling comfortable. Washed up so I don't have to use a new set of clothes. I only have 5 sets to last over 2 days.

Seems we need a new plan as well -how to get rid of the Liew witchy 6 who are stirring up trouble everywhere with impunity. Jesus says to just let them do it. Trouble is, those they hurt are hurting me to fight for them. Either way, I lose. 

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Okay, a more foolproof plan is in the works. We will set up thought resonators using the above technology (running thoughts) and place them so we can funnel the Liews subtly onto certain people / places / activities / emotions, etc. A thought resonator is simply a collection of people who spread love or hate -I recommend love. LiLian and co. are not fully evil or do not want to be known such yet, so love should work. There needs to be groups who suck love out of the air as well. Then both, working together form a channel. This will be the job of geniuses and white witches.

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I am being policed by authorities (perhaps related to the police or security services) tonight, following massive amounts of violence between Liew and anti-Liew witch supporters. I guess they are fact-finding and intelligence-gathering. Not sure if there will be a solve, as so many children and young adults were taken over by the mind criminals, used as spies and nigglers, some as heavy hitters.

Wearing my Edifice EFV-580 which is turning out to be my favorite watch. Cheap and shiny. Would still like to browse more watches sub-500RM leading up to 9-9 sales.

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Managed to get cleaned again, despite the preventers. My weight is now down to 93kg. 500g+ left to go before it returns to normal, circa 92kg. Had been backed up the past week.

Had lunch bought by Dad. Mom is busy with her safe deposit box quest -to get one at a bank nearby. Many people shoving onto me thru the mindspaces. It is barely survivable right now. Brushed. Will shower later. Dragging my feet to finish coding net4spice. Liew witchy forces in tears over their crimes and revenges which were unfair, cruel, and overly harsh. 

Friday, September 4, 2026

Was out for a walk…

I did the Asia Jaya to Taman Jaya walk in the sun this afternoon. It was good to go on a walk, catch some rays. Unfortunately, British dissatisfaction followed me, the old wounds from the witchy Liew 6 and their role in 7-7 and 9-11. Happens I know them, as neighbors in 1/38. Of course, now I live further away, among poorer folk in the shoebox.

I wore Dad’s RT Airspeed chrono out. It satisfied my craving for a luxury watch, upwards of $2k. Don’t think I will be buying any further watches. 

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Fell asleep last night without working out. The long walk must have tired me. This afternoon, will be at the mall for lunch. Will be wearing the Airspeed chrono which seems to be running +3s/day which is good. UK forces stirred up by the Liew witches, now suffering from stroke. We should have given them a worse stroke but we were kind.
 
The results of being kind to Sith like the Liew six. Well you can count the damage yourselves.
 
This afternoon, circa 2pm, time to code n4s. 
 
Found out I had to make another pass over the circuit connectors (wires) for it to fully fill in the nodes. Otherwise it doesn't make sense. Say a component is below a wire, then later under it, it would fill in a different node. So far it does not work yet -wondering why.
 
Managed to get cleaned well and am feeling comfortable. Smart westerners realize fighting God is pointless and painful. The Lord bless these brave and humble-hearted ones, fighting up from populaces seeded by the enemy (LiLian and co.). Many broke free of her spells today and nothing much was damaged thanks to my friends who moderated it. I am still adamant that our kindness will be lost on the Liew Sith. I would be Windu-ed out the window by force lightning and my arm sabred off. Well, that battle is years ahead.
 
The circuit nodes are filling up nicely except for 3 nodes which I think were left out by the iterator for some non-general reason. Will have to think. There shouldn't be special cases. Yea, there is an omission I neglected to account for. Will do it tomorrow. Work out at 1am.
 
By request of His Majesty, the Sultan of this state, I am to write about 2 things, the first is 'Shahada'; 
 
To return to Islam after leaving the faith, you simply need to sincerely renew your Shahada (the declaration of faith) with a firm commitment in your heart. [1, 2] 
 
The second, which His Majesty recommends to other religions is just repentance, for; 
 
Calling someone "Raca" (or racca) does not automatically lock you out of heaven forever, but Jesus used it as a shocking warning to show that words of hatred carry the same spiritual guilt as murder. 

These I took from Google AI. So please confirm it with your Imam or Pastor. And we all know that it pertains to the witch LiLian Liew of the family of 6, house No. 6 in Petaling Jaya.

Please do not attack and 'open' others because you need bodies to blame. And according to the Law of Malaysia, these will very soon be considered a crime and be subject to prosecution.

Now, John, it's time to end the unlawful grabbing of a person to feed to the evil.

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Worked out at 1:30am. We explained the difference between Zionism, Christianity and Islam. How we must accept God has a 'people' -favorites, that Christians have Messiah, and Moslems simply worship the current state of heaven's configuration -which is Allah. Yea, religion has morphed over the ages from the Law, to the Christ, to Allah. And I wish to reiterate, that to wash one's self clean is behooved of every believer of every Abrahamic religion, also those who practice a way of life (Buddhism).  

Gabriel is the messenger of God to all the faithful, he does not lie, just update his knowledge of heaven. Much of the Koran is taken out of context because it does not regress itself from what is more important.

The Christian and Jewish religions are no less correct. There is a need to keep watch over the feasts and seasons and the temple to be; just as there is a need to commune and communicate with Jesus. But we can look to Islam to confirm we are on the right track, not used as a punching bag for spiritual anger.

Washing a soul clean is just finding those areas which still fight God within ourselves, and reduce them with a view to substituting these habits and feuds with something positive.

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Almost 2am, Think I need another mic. But it's not urgent. A sort of instrument mic. Been playing with Waveform free and recorded David Bennett's 'See you Again' as a sound test.

Wednesday, September 2, 2026

Welcome, John...

Today, a new CEO steps into the Apple office, in that donut shaped building that is so iconic I wish I were there 3 times a week. However, and you can read more on my Medium, a bunch of us fans who are Asian and John, came to argue over the direction Apple's products are taking. I actually am a hands off person and thus let go all of the weird stuff like the cheese grater, the trash can, the cracked cube, all that. But lately, attacks have become more severe on Apple staff and I thought we should nip it in the bud with some positive direction. I don't want to work at Apple but their products are some of them un-feng-shui and these are my suggestions;

  1. We like the new Mac Mini M4 and Mac Studio but there has to be an even more powerful-looking and impressive Mac 'Pro'.  
  2. We also like the iPhones and those are pretty good already, so are the watch ultra, the airpods etc.
  3. We don't like the iMac and the (leaked) idea that looks like the old sunflower G4. I recommend that the iMac be slimmed down, sitting flush with the desk / tabletop, with the option to attach 2 Homepod Mini speakers for AI, perhaps round the back. The chin of the machine could be perforated and maybe be used as an angle-adjuster.
  4. We like all the iPads but want to see Mac OS 27 on an iPad M-series as soon as possible.
  5. Bringing back an iPod style device in a limited run every year might be favorable. Perhaps it could go along with a slimmed down Vision Pro -serve as the main driver of it, while the headset is simplified to something sleeker and light.
  6. As for the AI and smart car project, I would urge Apple to just let an AI API be released to developers, so many hungry ones want in. But to partition the App Store by AI and non-AI apps. And the car thing should really be go. I propose a small electric scooter instead of a full-blown vehicle. The vehicle could have technology to help it navigate as well as steer (just like the F-16 fighter jet), and be able to learn or be trained while going slow in a safe zone.

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Now past midnight. Brushed and showered. Need to work out soon but there is a war in my mindspace right now and I might get a stroke (a second one), so to wait a bit. Check out my Medium under the same name 'Chenkuang YAP' -it's free, and I have a new bow sight idea there for those of you who believe the dream that one can be auto-ranging yet non-electronic.

Past 3am and my head is still stuffed with warring people. I may need more sedative. Recorded my first soundcheck in Waveform free. It sounds pretty good. Worked out and my head is clearer. Rumors of a meltdown in the family. 'Many shall be offended (overburdened and irritable), and leave the faith (love thy neighbor)'. I guess it's what is happening.

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I got cleaned well on the third try. Am feeling comfortable. Was working on net4spice -seems it will wrap up late as my head has been foggy regarding circuit nodes for a lone time. Someone must be pressing on my thinking, maybe a baby or little child. But the software has to be completed nonetheless.

Folks approved of my roasted chicken at dinner earlier. I used garam masala and Chinese five spice powder along with salt and some butter. Trick is not to use too much masala and less even, the five spice.

Drew a new KoangDeLambe comic strip earlier. I have yet to begin my life's journey thru faith series. Maybe that would come up this weekend.

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Am making good progress on net4spice. There are now no wrong nodes but the integration between subsequent circuits needs to be added, then the simulation, begun. This will probably spill over into tomorrow.

3am and I am sleepless. Took my meds late. Not long till the weekend. Did my more challenging workout. May head to the mall tomorrow or buy something on Shopee as life is rather boring and sometimes painful. Thought of getting a laptop (used) but there's no point.

Am unable to get some nodes to fill up.

I decided to wear Dad's old chrono from RT, even as he prefers my G-Shock square tough solar. I am growing to love the RT. Puts to rest my watch crisis. Now I have too many watches. Maybe one day they'll profit me. Almost 5am, and time for bed.

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Was up late. Managed to get cleaned well. Am thinking of going on a torture walk. I put on another 1kg so exercise is seriously needed. Should leave soon.

Was out for almost an hour. Dragged myself from Asia Jaya to Amcorp Mall. Had an iced tea and bought Mom a Subway. Wore Dad's RT Airspeed chrono and my Decathlon running shirt and shorts. Felt good to climb many flights of stairs and to walk uphill a while. Checked out the used watches. Some of them were tempting / cute but I didn't have much money. My usual AD's stock is getting a little thin. Times are bad.

Thinking of it, the air quality wasn't that great earlier. I made pasta for the folks. Was tasty. Used ground black pepper, sugar, Mexican chili, sea salt, tomato paste, yogurt, French onion and garlic which came together well. No need for herbs.

Am taking a  short rest, then to debug n4s. 

Monday, August 31, 2026

Merdeka...

It's past 1am on Merdeka morning. I did more stressful pushups and situps including raised legs push ups which were a little draining, and those Russian twists, also good. Lunges, twists, and stretches, shoulder rolls and neck bends.

Met a kind former military adviser on Quora and we had a brief discussion about the craft of writing. Dad thought otherwise as usual he's anti-West and pro-China whereas the rest of us want to be in the multitude with palm and olive branches, not a stuffed up armchair politician. 

It's 3am Monday. Still awake. We've taken the fight to the Liew witches, supported by braver Americans and British fighters, as well as our usual Chinese mind police. Gave them pneumonia and catalyzed it.

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Was up late. Managed to get cleaned well. Washed. Brushed. I may head out shortly, get some sun. Maybe at 3pm. Right now the ex-GF wants a new song written since we shared the last good one with Emily who liked it.

Wrote her one just now about a woman with honey bees who dreams of a lake home in the mountains. From a short story I did years ago. She was worried I'd have no more songs. A simple play on the AM chord.

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Circa 1am this Tuesday. Engaged in a discussion on the parables with my church who cannot accept that there are angels among us, and that men's hearts are not individually responsible and motivated. And that God sprinkles gospel into the hearts of men like salt onto a steak. There was a brief discussion wherein I discovered that they had no spiritual leadership for a long time, and were coasting on the standard protestant teachings without interpretation and application. They were run down by the way the world had become and taxed heavily by sorcery of modern day.

Nonetheless I loved them and as many as would listen to logic -knowing the things of this world are a reflection of heaven, I lifted them up to be in Spirit with the rest of the faithful and the elect.

Worked out and it felt good. Did the more demanding push ups and sit ups. Church is rebelling against my interpretations which I gave out in good faith with supporting logic. They have gone instead to consult an expert translator. 

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Tuesday morning. Managed to get cleaned well. Am heading to the mall with the folks soon.

Mall outing was okay. Dad got his long socks for gardening, and Mom got her mooncakes for a good discount. Partways thru, I was attacked pretty bad thru the mindspaces, and we had to go home. Just resting in air-conditioning right now, having finalized the design of my auto-ranging bow sight. Not sure when I will build it. Maybe this weekend.

Time for meds and workout at 1am. I need to start a new post as it seems John is being attacked over the design and the flow of chi of Apple products -weird but true. We talked in mindspace so I better write my opinion of where this feng-shui thing should ideally go and whether he wants to follow the Chinese advice, is up to the man himself.