Tonight, I am fighting demons that settled over our school way back in the early 90s and late 80s. These were let in by evil men who drove many of my friends to desperation. The web of lies and backstabbing was impenetrable, from attackers who could strike anyone, anywhere. This is the central problem we face, and what we must solve. How did God lose control?
Normally, He would lose control when people are very sinful. Same as in the Old Testament. They are sinful because of guilt. Yes, GUILT leads to SIN leads to DEATH / MADNESS. Fear comes from Morality, and Fear to Guilt. Organized religion is an ark of laws. It is a ship guided by many hands. Yet for believers to be apart is hard on them / us.
My current church is an ecclesia of a dozen people. But still, we suffer. There is no religion except personal beliefs. Some decline to communicate religion in the mindspaces, others refuse to join a body of spirit but to climb on sideways, in secret.
Remember the Lord predicted, we would wait for him in pairs, one taken -the other left. And it seemed to me that these mathematical odds, so specific, pertain only to believers and perhaps that both the taken and left have a job function to fulfill. Otherwise it would be meaningless and over generalistic.
Pairing up is the best way forward. Just two men or two women waiting for that day. And it came to me that the types of people who pair up are the worldly and the spiritual. That is all I am allowed to reveal.
Thus the attacks of the enemy are blunted.
It’s past midnight and I have brushed and showered, taken my meds. Work out at 1am.
Almost 2am and I've just completed a short and intensive workout.
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Was up earlyish. Yet to get cleaned but I did brush and am editing SDU. Going rather slow. A chapter plus per day. Should manage chapter 4 by tonight, then the rest over the next 2 days. Decided not to consult the CoPilot suggestions right now but as touch up, in a later edit, EOM.
Circa 10pm. Finishing editing the first half of SDU. The second half needs less, as I really took pains over it. Will read thru that part tomorrow. Mom is out shopping with Sis. My right foot feels tingly for some reason. Must be more witch attacks.
Onto chp6 tomorrow morning. Should take an hour plus to read thru the second half of the novel. Fixed lotsa inconsistencies. I need to wrap up 2 things: Kyoko’s shark attack bionics (maybe in the war scene) and Derek’s super children who may found a new secret society, do something brave, pivotal.
And I think I will revise the abacus matrix technology a bit.
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Past 2am. I had to get cleaned again. It was the birds' eye peppers I had for lunch. Luckily it was circa 2am and most people were asleep. Brushed. Will work out at 2:30am. I got rid of the old non-HD TV in favor of a spare 23" monitor. I need to get a power strip so I can watch TV from my bed, cross-wise. Anyhow it is off my table and I am no longer struggling with its HDMI resolution issues.
Been analyzing Matt 24 and seeing how much of it was fulfilled, that I knew of, and there were some gaps where I missed things like many false Christs and false prophets. Since when were those about? Could be they've done their damage.
Can't wait to upload the final draft of SDU to my Google Drive tomorrow evening. I think it might fit the manga genre quite well.
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Was up late. Brushed and worked out. My stylograph should arrive this afternoon. I need to prepare some cash. Am airing my room. Don't feel much like editing somehow.
I pulled together and now have edited and read thru 90% of SDU. There were circa 5, 6 awful errors and equally as much bad logic / reasoning. Wasn’t easy. Then the Liew witches came in and bumped me and Sara Lubratt together, she’s also soon to be an author. So I quit for a bit and am resting in air conditioning.