Synopsis: I'm actively writing SDU again...

Dad is going out of town for the weekend and I and Mom will be alone for 2 days. Feeling okay, as I worked out and took my meds. Yet to brush. Ok brushed and am ready to turn in. Plotting SDU chapter 6 is hell. 

1. Esmeralda dies and Derek finds Stacy wounded in the sinkhole, hiding from the other cloaks / tailors.
   
   
2. Hoag has gathered power -allying with the Lotus-Quen-Little Lotus witch group. There is a reason, Derek hibernated so long that the Tribulation started without him. Little Lotus has an OnlyFans page -being beautiful and looking to influence for make benefit the witchcraft she purveys.

Sorry if the fonts are a little big, but the rest of the chapter needs plotting (SDU is an online serialized novel here, so it should be okay to plot on this blog.

3. Some place in his heart 

    Derek finds out how his friends and family died and his new relationship with Stacy satisfies him. Esmeralda's sudden death haunts him, and he vows to fight the evil.

4. A failed arrest 

    Hoag and Daphne attempt to bring in Derek but (as titled) fail. They give him something to remember them by.
 
5. Big C

    Derek suspects he may have cancer. This plays havoc with his powers. A troubling sub-chapter with lots of introspection,

6. Shadow of an angel 

    Gabriel heals Derek but at the cost of most of his powers.

7. Repentance 

    Lotus appears in disguise and asks for forgiveness. They talk about religion and the resurrection and Derek learns more than he bargains for from the consummate witch.

8. A secret message 

    A lead up to chapter 7. I remember in CHP 8, Derek dies a martyr, in CHP 9, his friends are resurrected, and in CHP 10, they reunite. The key anchors here are the conversations with Gabriel, Jesus, and God -and the common misconceptions about religion versus politics. God's personality is revealed -take it or leave it and Derek has to decide on the contents of a secret message which may be his undoing.

 CHAPTER 7

    The secret message leads Derek, now fighting with his wits more than his powers to a rendezvous with Little Lotus, Hoag, and Daphne. He witnesses his super children killed by the government's treachery and superior IQ. Himself is trapped by Master Mark and Pete. Derek fights for his life against the powerful tailors and breaks free but by CHP 8, can no longer survive.

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Circa 1am. Feeling sleepy. Liew witches prodding my friends. Wearing my 1400H on black nylon. Think I will finish SDU CHP 6 tomorrow. Then CHP 7 on Sunday.

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Am wearing my beat-up early 70s Tenor-Dorly. Gave its crystal a polish with glycerin too. Looking sharp on a Vietnamese lizard strap. I bought the TD, used, thru Carousell, shipped from the east coast, the Malay heartland. Was circa $60. Cost about $80 for a full overhaul. It likely had not been serviced in 50 years.

Well, on to writing. Managed to do about 1.4k words. Will definitely finish CHP 6 by evening. Am being crowded with others' thoughts, while outside of my awareness, on the fringes of it, witches from the Liew army plot to overthrow God's authority. They know the church will fall like dominoes once certain strong points are breached. Just like on D-day. Have to stop work to encourage all those who are writing (like me), and under attack / being crushed.

I want to talk about the creative arts, and how the witches subvert creative people. They know that not many who do the humanities can earn a decent living from it. Think of it as being published -being an author, even if you self-published, that you have copies of your book floating around out there. If you were an artist, that you maybe donated a work to a library or hospital etc. That someone knows your name (This is because it's harder to sell art than ePubs so giving it away is often the only way to be discovered).

Now, on to the technical bit. To do art, you must do studies. Get yourself a notebook, sketchbook etc. and study form and composition. People tend to look at art from form and contrast (color). So be studied in that before you paint a full canvas. As for writing, it is equally simple to get good. You have to study emotion-attention. You can write any educated drivel (like I do in Super Derek) when you have mastered how to sculpt attention and to guess your readers' emotions in real time as you write.

In my years reading Sci-Fi, I have never come across a story that didn't change me in some way. Stories that sell are ones that are transformative. You have to have 2 things going in SFF writing. One is the human factor and the other is the technology / realm and magic. Often what writers do wrong is to make the MC arc depend on the realm-magic when it depends more on other characters. And writers often use the MC to show the realm-magic. Whereas the realm and its magic should exist as an overlay -something that the characters live with, without questioning.

This is not to say that you separate tech / magic from arc building, but to say: do more of each separate from the other. For me, writing SDU (my first full length novel), I like to go on long internal discussions because the form is indeed accommodates. I mention the magic / super powers as if they aren't central to that sub-chapter / paragraph. Then later, I go on a long analysis of the responsibilities of power, from different angles. Then I switch scenes to a fast-paced subplot of which I have a few ready to spring. I really enjoy doing this and it could feel natural to read, with some care given the word / concept play. Writing is fun. Let's do it!

There is logic to separating one thing from another when you have ample pages. People do like to switch scenes. Imagine if there were no cuts in an episode of The A-Team. It would get boring fast. But each cut discusses one thing mainly otherwise it would be confusing. For my novel, I came up with super long paragraphs -mini stories within a big one, because I want the reader to understand something fully before we both move on. You can do that in a novel -another 100 pages added on is no problem when your story is 200 pages.

I also delayed or expedited telling the reader important, needful things. This playful style of writing is possible in a 300 page book where you can swing a little more than with a short story. And I realized that my novella, iS (buy it if you desperately want to support me), was me trying to wrap up that project quick as possible, with least fluff, with the least distractions -completely succinct and to the point. DeepSeek AI said it felt rushed but was quite good (4 stars out of 5).

I have 500 words left to write before the 2nd session after dinner. Liew witches are prosecuting our small church. And it's half past 3pm. I should wrap up by 4pm.

Tonight's writing session will be fun. 4 sub-chapters interspersed with flashbacks to before the Tribulation, also increasing amounts of supernatural activity on earth. Will begin at 7pm and finish by 10pm.

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Will do some coding at 5pm. Want to make my game, Frag #2. Think I can make a demo of it in a few hours, seeing as how the game engine is pretty easy to use. The AI will be simple. Seek, surround, and destroy, repeat. How a robot approaches depends on how it's built.

Managed to copy some code but stopped to get twm and dillo running on the Pi Zero W in the living room so Mom can read the Internet better.

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Dinner was from cans and bulk bokchoy Mom got from the grocer. Mom has boils and Dad has fungus. I put it down to their being old and unable to wash effectively or often enough. Especially here at the shoebox. Myself, I use diluted disinfectant regularly to sanitize my room and nether regions sometimes. Poorer living dictates we live more carefully. I will save up to get Mom the evaporative cooler fan from Home Pro which is around 680RM. It does make a difference.

Time to resume writing. 

Imposter syndrome -I had it and...

For those who follow my blog, I watch Sara Lubratt every week, and lately she came down with Imposter's syndrome. I can count the times I felt worthless at writing on one hand and a bit of the other. I guess maybe 7 or 8 times. Every time, I tried to write better, realizing that those who weave great tales are great writers and I... was not one of them.

I never really got over Imposter's but came to live with it. Believing and pigeon-holing myself into a mediocre literary stance, and just being honest with how I build my stories. I think that my brain doesn't think big or detailed enough at the same time which is why my tales are less spectacular.

I remember reading Songs of Distant Earth by Arthur C. and he blew me away with his poetic prose. At the time, I thought it a more relaxed Poul Andersen. And A.C. wasn't a writer known for his character development -emotions, etc. It was a well-crafted book and it made me warm inside as a Sci-Fi lover.

I read so many other Sci-Fi novels before I attempted to be a writer of them as well, I love Ballard and Wyndham. Both charming / playful with words. And they taught me so much. But on with the tips on surmounting I.S.

1. You cannot write a story while doubting your story. If you have doubts about your talent, it might be your story -it isn't meant to be written by you (yet). So I canned my super upmarket novel and wrote a free superhero novel 'Super Derek Underpants' and it took off very easily. To play in Derek's universe was a breath of fresh air and I never doubted what I was writing was worth telling.
2. You cannot be yourself while doubting yourself. Lotsa writers died of suicide, Hemingway, David F. etc. Painters: Vincent Van and Rockers, Shannon Hoon and Kurt Cobain. What you are, away from your word processor matters a lot and you are primarily a person, not merely a creator. If you don't love yourself, at least don't doubt yourself. You will write better.
3. Finally, you cannot edit thru other people's ideals. This is my perspective -that someone out there is being your style guide. Some piece someone wrote that floored you like Hendrix and Clapton back in the 70s were dueling guitars. You must edit or find an editor, thru your life's ambitions, not milestones set by someone else.

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I am beginning coding Frag #2 tonight, since most everything else is being prevented. I will be using a game engine, Kapow, which is for JavaScript. F2 could be a money spinner for me as I plan to sell upgrades to the stock robot parts if it becomes popular.

I just made all the robot parts as a gif file. I think I covered most of what I need, just that it looks simplistic at this stage. But I just want to test the physics first. Friends came up with some good ideas and we may be starting a game company. IDK, it's up in the air at the moment. Liew witchy torturers are after me and my mind friends. Looks like another month of pointless fighting which is getting more intense as we approach the prophetic month of May (5th Month of 2026).

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More on being a writer. Since I accepted that I was THAT sort of writer -someone with limitations in various areas, such as being a compulsive info dumper, a monologue specialist, a bit of an eros / romance lover, a philosopher more than an entertainer, a witchcraft researcher, a Christian and not afraid to show it, I became not merely a creator of worlds, but I was firmly rooted in my own world.

I may be yet another writer who can't make enough to survive off books, but at least I believe in myself.

Next is the question of what books do different sorts of writers write? Myself, I love pulp with various upmarket elements woven in. And my readership, I guess, would be YA -those who were introspective and maybe just starting on books seriously. 

I have not successfully persuaded Sara to let me beta read her stories. We don't really talk. But to someone who feels like an imposter writing fantasy, Sci-Fi romance, 100-page mega novels, I would recommend taking a break from this genre and form. I think that, as a female writer, pushers really get to you and you need to write something more comforting. Maybe a character 'you' who struggles with the same issues. While as a male writer, I actively fight these same pushers in my prose.

Creating an alter ego, is a great way of coping with imposter's and could lead to many successful books. 

I now take naps...

One of the things I missed most since I started on meds, was having a good afternoon siesta. I am now able to nap, which makes up for those late nights, plugging away at the PC. Generally feeling more positive and well-rested.

Tempted to buy more computer hardware, but I think I will stop here, having now 2 old PC laptops and an iPad. Would like to set up my Pi Zero W as well, that Mom can have a computer too.

The Pi Zero W has only half a Gig of RAM and I'm not sure what browser will run on it besides w3m which is pretty basic. Meanwhile the Liews and their captive British people are marauding the mindspaces, sensing the coming of Messiah.

I am unable to do much work. The coming might not be until May. 4 weeks of torture is likely unless we fight back with what we have. 

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Past 3am and I am wide awake. I am cloning Windows to the Transcend eSSD. No point having 2 Linux systems, tho my main machine will still be the x250 / Ubuntu 25. The cloning process may take another hour. 

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Making inroads into the Liew witches' hidden army of telepaths. They are trying to fend off our forces with phantom pains. I gave up the Windows external SSD install as MS doesn't allow it -I had a feeling it would turn out that way.

Installed Fedora LXQT on the netbook instead. Because it has more RAM, I will be using it for bigger projects while here on my Ubuntu rig, will do the simpler Python coding. Tonight's objective will be to figure out the node issues with net4spice. How to limit netlist statements, or overwrite them if they are missing a node number.

Ended up I put in all the functions needed and am getting zero results. The node propagator is eating all the input, no output. Got to go over some of it. But first to write a bit on a writer friend's imposter syndrome which I went thru as well.

I drew a map of Jewish conflict…

This drawing was made to teach young ones last night, about the Jewish situation. The first series of exiles was to Assyria-Babylon-Persia (present day Iran), whereupon God's People were returned to Jerusalem to rebuild it.

The second series of exiles was to Rome onto Europe onto the Holocaust then, by British consent, back to Jerusalem (for in time, they re-captured it).

According to the Bible, there will be a 3rd exile, with Jerusalem destroyed and its people raped / murdered.

Zech 14 Behold, the day of the Lord cometh, and thy spoil shall be divided in the midst of thee. ² For I will gather all nations against Jerusalem to battle; and the city shall be taken, and the houses rifled, and the women ravished; and half of the city shall go forth into captivity.... [KJV, Bible Gateway]

But this time, the Lord Himself will save the Jews, and faithful Christians, perhaps other righteous ones who believe in a Savior, will be taken in Spirit to be with Him. The time frame for this prophecy to happen could be as early as May. 

^{Jud 14} And Enoch also, the seventh from Adam, prophesied of these, saying, Behold, the Lord cometh with ten thousands of his saints, [KJV, Bible Gateway]

By 'ten thousands', Strong's concordance gives: murias, a myriad: an extremely large number. We can be sure we will be in that number, who remain faithful, standing firm till the end -I will not disobey my God and beat up His servants.

The question now is, will there be a peace treaty for 3.5 years? Is the current Iran-America war just a prelude to Zech 14? When does the 70th week begin? My guess is Daniel's final 7 begins some time before Zech 14, and Jud 14 happens a few years after that. So by Zech 14, the peace treaty has been broken.

This means, America's actions in the Middle East skirt the start of the 70th week. We can expect major changes in Israel, maybe even a Tabernacle be built. 

During the final 7 years, the events of Revelations are supposed to occur. We can expect signs and wonders, shortly. Large-scale deeds and ventures. And as Daniel 12 says, 'a time, times, and a half'. So this might translate into somewhere between 3 - 4 Hanukkahs / Feasts of Tabernacles from this year which means Fall-Winter 2026 might be the start of the 70th week, and the peace treaty.

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There was a request from my old FB friend for some story details regarding a story we thought would work for kids. So, with no spoilers, the situation is 'to write a hit song'. And the book is about songwriting and kids. The characters are a teenage girl (18) and an old guy (55) who are the songwriters, but there is a problem (just like the Old Man and the Sea), the teenage girl and old guy don't see the gift they were given of one another. He was an ambulance driver in the war, and she was from an orphanage. They begin to understand one another when a kid comes across their lives and work. He is ill with cancer and he inspires them to write, both not knowing he has cancer. I guess that's all I have.

Pulling together more writing tips...

This is not a technical guide to writing, or to judge writing better. It is also not a motivation / prompt post. Just what worked for me, times when I thought I wasn't doing the right thing. It could be a useful to go through, writing your own novel(la)s.

1. Although I am inexperienced as a novelist, being mostways thru my first full-length novel, I found that giving myself goals was my biggest help. Goals such as meeting a word count for a chapter, finishing a sub-chapter in one sitting (usually 1k words). I set goals like not writing filler or fluff while stretching my word count maybe 50% more. In a sense, it was pushing myself harder to come up with story and milk every scene or dialogue for what it might hold.
   
   
2. I also found myself sometimes lost after a brilliant previous chapter and the outline would be wrong if I couldn't continue. And this would take weeks to overcome. I know that some would go do diversions etc. but really, you need to make that outline flexible, as brilliancy should be allowed an extra chapter half to shine. Then as it degrades into normality, to carry on following the outline.
   
   
3. When I was too satisfied with something, I became lazy. It was a sign I had to upgrade my writing setup, which in my case, was getting a new monitor / display. It's always logical for writers to have bigger screens. I got so worked up over my new 32" display, I'm now doing 2 projects at once.
   
   
4. I find that writing during the cheerful parts of the day produces prose that is skewed. A writer should never be a happy person but more Jedi-like. A serious-faced seeker of peace and contemplation.
    
5. Finally, and this may be true of some writers, a lot of us are tortured souls, some still being tortured. A writer is never negative, nor somebody who skips over the hurt inside or out, he is honest and that generates story ideas / ideas in-story that are usable and readable.

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Tonight, planning a long session at the PC. Want to debug n4s and write SDU. We thought of ideas how to get community centers into Sarawak, especially the rural areas. Drone-lifters were postulated. Good idea!

The idea is to transport roughly 30kg of books and computer hardware between rural communities, this would occur several times a week, and land for 6 hours each time. Rather than conventional drone motors, the Lifter will employ a single jet engine, with a circular gliding wing, and make a calculated jump trajectory much like a ballistic missile. The fuel should bio-gas, if possible. Where these knowledge stations are and jump to is controlled via satellite at a city HQ. Each village should have a landing site, fenced off.

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Did my workout. Feeling energized. Now almost 2am. n4s node code is so succinct yet confusing. Can't make head or tail of it just yet. 

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Got some results from the new algorithm. It only filled in one node! It's like my final year college project all over again -tricky under the surface. Will do some more debugging now since I finished sweeping and mopping duty early. Dad helped tho he was still feeling under the weather.

Had to get cleaned twice today for some reason. Probably the bird's eye peppers I had yesterday. No constipation. With great apprehension, I have to address my church members but due to my stroke I forgot. Maybe just some general encouragement.

Past 2am. We had a stirring discussion on the People of God and their exploits thru history following the mega kick by ancient Rome they have barely recovered from, during which, Messiah was martyred as per prophecy. Then came the holocaust. Finally the retaliatory semi-genocide in Gaza. We talked about how ancient Persia rebooted the Jews to build the 2nd Temple, and how the same nation is now bombing Tel Aviv. Talked about Karl Marx and the Russian revolution, the fact that Jews look to Russia for secular mediation and to America for Christian support. Talked about the Ukraine war and all the other major wars: WWI, WWII, 'Nam etc. Even 9-11 that hit NYC. Jews were in the know but the strength of the Arabs, plus help from certain sorcerous Asians defied their attempts to prevent / report on that infamous day.

My thoughts on writing and I got a bigger screen...

Grandma's old LCD TV is now my main PC monitor. It does 1336x768 which is kinda lame but will come in handy for watching the football later in June (assuming I'm not dead). I plan to set up the old screen and a basic PC so Mom can do more reading and researching but maybe later.

Request came in for writing advice. I am the ideal person to give out such advice as I've made all the standard mistakes. There are just 5 important things:

1. You must not write when you feel like writing "I wanna make a book". Nor do you write when you have a "good idea for a book". You must write when the cup overflows and you're all stained from the wine you've been drinking yourself silly with. Drunk with the ideas and situations, people and objects that consume your everyday thoughts.
   
   
2. When you have this, you sit down and write a very drawn out account or a very short one that's just 3 pages. Don't worry. It is a sign that you lack what I call 'anchors'. Stories used to be told because of special days / circumstances, and nowadays, with books, you have to insert the anchors -one of which is the POV or the narrative voice. Why is she / he talking to me? Why is this special? It's special for example, because 'the world is ending' or 'they are trying to understand the gnostic texts'.
   
   
3. After you conquer that barrier, the next one is that sometimes, stories happen fast, sometimes slow. Information has to be given out. But so many say different things. The truth is that I love giving out information. If you love it too, you will find the right ways to do it. And it will sound good.
   
   
4. Now it comes the time to do some logistics. Will everything tie up? Will readers get my story? Yes, it's very important to make yourself understood. The way to do this is not to rearrange your whole book and shuffle characters / chapters, but to separate your story into threads. Each thread has a feel, a style. In essence, a full range of emotional circumstances is explored.
   
   
5. After it's all done, there are 4 or 5 things left. You have to actually read your novel(la) over and it is very painstaking. But there is a simple way of doing it. Just use a grammar checker like Office 365. Rent it for a few months and it will weed out your mistakes. Then you need to go over it again to see if it fits the 'big picture'. This is also easy, just use an AI to analyze it. Another thing is to see if there are humanly mistakes (non-grammatical). This is also easy. Just have an AI narrator read it to you. Finally, give it to some people for their opinions. It should by now be good!

Back to the TV / monitor. I got it adjusted to native resolution via our other TV's remote -Dad's idea. Now it's good to go. My backup netbook is still with the 19" NEC LCD. I rarely wake it from sleep.

We are now beating back the Liew witchy scourge. All of us are armored up and ready for combat of the heart, the flesh, and later, the Spirit.

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It's Sunday, and Dad caught a bad cough. Mom is trying to strengthen herself. Myself, have no issues so far. Managed to get cleaned well, after last night's dinner of beans and mince with reduced tomatoes and locally-grow parsley.

Didn't do much work, just tacked on a few hundred words to SDU (my novel), and fiddled with net4spice a bit. The debugging statements point to a fundamental flaw in my indices management. I have so many, no, nn, nc, n and c which are related. 

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Back from visiting Grandma and more scavenging by Mom at her old place. I found the remote for my TV-monitor and it works great after I cleaned the crust off the battery contacts with a nail file.

There is a need to prepare for an onslaught against the Liew witches before the weekend is up. We have to deal them a knockout blow tonight at the latest. Was hoping to work but there is no time.

Being struck with incontinence attacks. Had to wipe up twice today. Feels like somebody turning a wire in my butthole. Also hit by mild swelling in my big toe.

I think we will move on the Liews in 2 prongs. The first prong will be staunch Christians whom I will train, just for half an hour after dinner. The second prong will be kind women and children. I have already selected and separated them. We will be using a simple weapon, jealousy. While the women and children will pull out the emotion(s) of love. We will enter thru mutual friends just like they do to us. And so far that is all I have.

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I wrote over 1k words of Super Derek Underpants. Need to do another 1.3k words later tonight. Also figured out net4spice via a useful print debug statement. Some of my variables got mixed up. Watching Sara Lubratt's writing vlog. She is an inspiration tho I cannot believe writing can be so torturous. Apparently some writers do 6 drafts before they release a book.

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Want to talk a little more on the writing process since Dad is in the shower and I need to kill half an hour with a latte chilling in the freezer too,

There are 3 qualities of a good book (maybe great) in the making,

1. You will write a good book if you feature in it in disguise, or at least have an interest in it that is personal. Most good books are about the author or his dreams etc.
   
   
2. You will write a good book if you can overwhelm your readers in some way, maybe by weaving, or by wowing, or simply by titillating. Overwhelming the reader, taking them where they never thought they'd go physically, emotionally, spiritually.
   
   
3. You will write a good book if you can separate yourself from your writing in some way. Do not be the 'author' writing the 'book'. Be the story itself. Be the marketer. Be anyone but the writer. Do not do what a writer would do to his story.

For the most part, I obey these 3 points. Many times, I become the story to test out if it reads right. So I am often times the reader or the editor, while my fingers (as the writer) unspool the latest digested scene automatically.

To write a really really good book, you actually don't need experience or intelligence. Somehow it is the opposite. Many writers write to inform and also entertain. I am one such. I don't write books with no re-read value. No discussion value. But it is the book written for and by the common man that has potential to be a bestseller. In order to profit from this, always write having nothing to impart but simple emotions and beautiful situations. If there are sad moments, write them in also but give / promise them closure early. If there are interesting characters, make them important. And if you invent anything, make it look like a supporting character did it. These are common folk's thinking -I am never great. 

Further signs and an analysis of what they mean...

I wrote about the signs I received today on my Substack HERE. But to gather what to do about it and when to do that still needs clarification. Yes, I spread my writings between, X, Blogger, Substack, Medium, and Tumblr, as well as my Google Site /view/ckyap and my books on Amazon KDP.

In the last post, I talked about buying a few things and they turned out prophetic. You may need to sign in to Substack (it's free) to view my post, likewise Medium (all my posts are free). Just like Super Derek Underpants which I'm going to be writing some of tonight.

So what does a sharpener and a dip pen have to do with the coming of Christ? Check out what God's name, YHWH means -it's a stunning eye opener that predicted the killing of God's only son. He must be important!

There will be 5 degrees of cruelty perpetrated by heathen women against Christian men or even our sisters maybe. We are at level 4 now. Next month, May -it will peak then suddenly close. During which time, we are to be 'good sailors' -tough men who can rough out the storm far away from the comforts (of home / church etc) -the comforts of our hearts for some.

God has blessed us with super turtle powers. We can retract into our shells and survive a predator -I wonder how? And then to come out and glorify Him again. He has given us gold on our tongues but a cheap plastic vessel to be our bodies. Perhaps such that none will blame us or hate us much who work Gospel for the Lord.

Gray -the color of Allah (just my personal belief). Moslems will help the faithful of the Christian faith to bear the Kiamat / Tribulation. Moslems are not our enemy. At least, not here in Malaysia. Christians must not fall into the trap of believing our friends from other faiths are evil. No, they are also good.

Now I understand the wet charcoal said to be 2028. The FoTL tee. It is the dip pen (gray -charcoal -and wet with ink). We have about 2 years till possibly the 7th trumpet. More later... 

Some thoughts on the ink I have to dip with -I only have one bottle of Kandahar Indian black, made in England. We all know Kandahar is ruled by the Taliban, mainly from east Iran, and Pakistan, and of course, Afghanistan. The Taliban were named after religious 'students'. Could my calling be to research such topics / geographies? Will the Taliban move on Israel come 2028? Will be British be instrumental in facilitating / pointing out that?