Jealousy and beauty...

Something came up in the daily dealings of my family -in mindspace. And I have to re-preach my old message: the buying and selling of beauty is the oldest trade that still exists today. The second oldest by a hair, is jealousy (keeping up with the Joneses etc.)

Now we need to define 'expectations' for it is the reason we interact. We also need to define 'time' for it is limited. All else will be explained as is.

The expectation of LIFE is beauty divided by time. When beauty or time is short, then the expectation is different. We should aim for an expectation which is positive (above zero).

So see, I'm ugly and ugly for the rest of my life -I am depressed, vengeful, jealous -and jealousy becomes my trade -my give and take with others.

So see, I am beautiful and for a while in my life, but a season or two, therefore I am GOOD for always. The ratio is positive.

Sure you may say, your time is short. But I say, time stands still in the hearts of friends and believers when they behold beauty, truth, law. You will be remembered by the angels and as one who led the way to God.

More later...

Liew witchy Kwan caught with his pants down for abetting 9-11. Many Americans admitted to being visited by Kwan (our names are somewhat similar - I am often called Kwang), so we tested the guy with leg blasting and he caved, tho his mouth keeps motor talking -he was in my / your / their heart when he was moved to destroy America.

Now more networks of people are coming to see Kwan, no doubt who plotted with him. How can you sleep at night, man? 

Had a good sleep on one whole Rivotril...

Desperate people tried keeping me awake so I ducked out, taking more Rivotril to sleep. This morning am feeling fresh. Mom didn't sleep at all. Wonder what she was doing? Whether she protects me or pushes blame onto me? But that's okay -she's my mom and I love her. I do know that she and Sis push certain cancers onto my person -I am cancer resistant. Can't offhand remember what they were...

FastCN: ^-.
⺬  ⼎  ⼙  「  『  』  【  〖  〗  ぃ  く  ㄖ
FastCN: quit
Bye, 再见

This was FastCN's output to the stroke '--', yea  a simple dash. There ought to be more but that was it. Strange but at least it produced output from multiple lines in the data file. Have half an hour to go before my salt prune and water constipation remedy works its magic. It's hard to argue with others who push things they deserve, onto a relative or friend. I mean, tho they are successful, they should also be punished for their own crimes or at least don't 'ensure' it by blackening my face which is innocent.

I guess these are the birthpains and not everyone is good at handling suffering while they try to earn a living and raise their family. One of my friends' wife got disfigured quite badly -they never pushed and are fighting strong. She was the most beautiful girl in our class at high school / secondary school. Had to happen sometime -the jealousy.

FastCN: ^-.
⺬ ⼁ ⼎ ⼙ 「 『 』 【
〖 〗 ぃ き く こ し じ
ゅ ょ り る ろ ゎ ァ ェ
ォ ド ュ ョ レ ヮ ㄋ ㄖ
ㄚ

Some improvement to FastCN -I got a load of Japanese characters as well just searching for a 'dash' stroke.

Made some improvements to the stroke help printer,

FastCN: strokes
\      \-    /     -/      )    -)    -(    (,
,)    <     }     {      '     `     `-     -,
-     1     1,    2    3    4    7    77
7j   '7    ,7    +    -t    x    h,   j 
z     Z    c     C    o    L

They're all in rough order for easy learning. Brackets, tics, numbers, letters. I may simplify these base 38 strokes sometime tonight.

Used ImageMagick's montage feature so I can view many characters at once and decide which sub-strokes are the most effective for defining a char. It's a lot of work-smart and may take me an hour or more. Not sure I want to begin at 10pm. Took my meds and brushed. Will shower and change at 11pm.

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One thing I didn't quite notice about my room at the shoebox is that it's rather quiet. But there are a lot of movements thru my heart which is distracting from my work. Many plans are being hatched or planned to, even as I write this. The debate of whether we are in the iron-clay toes or the thighs of bronze is interesting. And perhaps by the end of the bronze empire, we will be of two destinies? Support Palestine or Israel.

Both prospects are dangerous, one the 7 headed beast and the other the harlot Babylon the Great. So it is my reckoning that the 'rapture' happens before this allegiance sets in.

The Pope was in Turkie and maybe now in Jerusalem(?) saying that there must be a Palestinian state. This would be in accordance with Revelations, Ezekiel, Daniel, etc. But we have to wait for the peace treaty to fully commence out of Donald's rough draft.

Drank a tall latte, hopefully to rehydrate this very dry and hot day. Passed on getting better strings for my C40 which is at the old house. My spare guitar. 50RM can be spent on other things.

Tomorrow, planning a trip to KLCC.

Feeling fresh after a good shower and am changed into comfy clothes for bed. Disinfected my mattress and piano bench which I use as a chair since the old swivel one broke. Keeps away the flies and other vermin, bacteria etc.

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I didn't head out as planned but went for an invigorating run instead, then me and Mom went to the grocer for bread and cheese. Found this app called SpaceDesk and now I have my Windows 11 machine's screen online thru my iPad --for free (non-commercial use).

Had been thinking I needed a small monitor for it. It's actually an old Celeron Acer netbook which I upgraded to 12GB RAM. This Linux machine has only 8GB but has a quad core i5.