Thursday, April 30, 2026

I ordered a TV set top box...

My salvaged TV is old so I need a digital antenna to analog set top box. Found one locally on Shopee for just $9. Hopefully can catch some matches from the World Cup this June.

LiLian and her forces are smiting us, just as Donald has declassified the UFO files. 'Our fight is not against flesh and blood, but powers and principalities of the Prince of the air'.

Coding is going well. I am now more aware of why the node numbering failed and am trying various 'clever' solutions.

I successfully strung  my C40 with the bit too short nylons from my Kepma. Didn't think it would work. Touch wood, they did. I don't think tying knots on your guitar strings is a good idea but I was a little desperate and definitely stingy. But the knots have plenty of loose end so I guess they'll hold. Sounds pretty decent. 

Already past 10pm. The bathroom light is still shorted out. Haven't read Not Here to Stay much more yet. An interesting beginning, I think, and a good book overall.

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Was just talking about how LiLian (the Liew witch daughter) used Biblical references to play out UMIST postgraduates while I was studying there. She did several groups of foreign and local students. Indeed the feet of clay and iron came apart.

Am still coding, now going well. I needed iterators for different classes of data -the transistor row, the referenced transistor(s), and the normal single i/o components. Quite an odd way of doing things.

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I now have the nodes for net4spice / n4s. Will proceed to the simulation stage after dinner. The way I did it was to define a junction by all the components connected to it, then simplify via Python's sorted and set functions. Had to do a main loop over the wired list, then for each component, do a scrape over the wired list. Then write to the node list. I began n4s in February and finished after 3 months.

The simulation is almost done. Need some regex to create the netlist statements. Will resume coding at 11pm, need a rest. Liew forces in disarray.

Brushed and took a shower. Will take my meds at 12:30am and work out after 1am. 

Past 2am. N4s is held up by how best to join select list elements from one long list. Liew forces pain-giving again.

Almost solved the component properties thing. Then we can simulate, later, join circuit blocks, then that should be all for some time.

Liews attacked and were put away, dying in every cell of their bodies. Like I said, it is quite easy, telepathy is very dangerous when you’ve angered many people.

Some setbacks. Bugs in my code. Incomplete lists, perhaps the old node junction bug. Soon time to sweep and mop our shoebox. Will take a rest. Continue after dinner.

Past 1am. Worked out. Took my meds, brushed. Feeling okay. Wearing my Promaster diver quartz. May venture out tomorrow on a long walk. Still tidying up net4spice. Problems with my loose and friendly data syntax. Nearly there but am too sleepy to code more.

Tuesday, April 28, 2026

I rearranged my table and some of my electronics...

I slept at 5am, waking after 5 hours. In an hour, planning to visit Kinokuniya to check out a book by a friend. It cost a whopping 90RM but to be fair, is quite thick and I would like to review it on my Medium.

Haven't had any inspiration to write SDU chapter 8. I guess I'm a little burnt out and should rest today. Still an hour till I head out. Maybe I will do a late outing rather than try to cram my life into fixed time slots. Go around dinner time. Want to play with my Pi Zero more.

Out of nowhere I wrote a song. Best in months. It's on Tumblr @donutwares and YouTube, ChenKuang YAP. Marks my return to steel strings. It wasn't really out of nowhere but to remember meeting someone nice. My ex-GF was jealous as it seems all such songs sound better than the ones I wrote for her. If she does arrive, I must remember to write the best.... which sometimes doesn't happen.

Monday, April 27, 2026

William, william...

The riddle of William comes in 2 parts, each having 3 dependencies. The first is (and anyone can see it), a seething (high negative emotion) resentfulness. I will explain later. The second is shame and servitude. This should be clear.

Part 1 depends on firstly, betrayal, then disrespect, finally, inability to gain his deserved control / power.

Part 2 depends on firstly, politeness, then fear, finally giving up too soon.

Attempts were made to educate and re-raise William, now a grown man, and this is for his own good and the way celebs and people in the Commonwealth are treated, he should learn from his own class, what he needs to do right and not be a slave to witches -all witches have an axe to grind which is judgment over jealousy. William you must listen to reason even tho I am but a lowly blogger of little Spirit.

Politeness-fear-capitulation -> this means you are ignoring danger rather than tackling it.

Betrayal-disrespect-lost power -> this means you were actually despised but fed platitudes.

William, when you rise up, you must be a different person. Not personality-wise but built up well in conscience.  

Sunday, April 26, 2026

Chapter 7 : Super Derek Underpants

1. Words of the wise

Hey, Curtis, Curtis…? -is that you? The familiar voice of the Hawaiian. Curtis T-, Derek half replied, and they hugged, burying their mouths in each other’s shoulders. Is Kyoko also here? A brief pause, then he said, yes, softly but firmly. She’s- is she-, he began. Boss replied, she’s totally alright but still shaken. We don’t know if she’ll ever be the same.

Stacy and Derek were in the back room of the abandoned fire station flats. They were under 2 feet of water at ground level and sinkholes had appeared here and there. See what you’ve missed, said the blonde Tailor. Every island and mountain moved from their place. They had each packed a small bag of possessions. Derek saw she had SYRN underwear. It’s because I’m from California. The lot of us, we voted in Governor Chelsea. You missed that too. Derek scratched his head, now covered with stubble. Stacy, I need to learn how to think better -and I need it now. His friends knew he was living on borrowed time. If only God had taken everyone’s powers. God wasn’t playing fair but to be fair -He had His reasons. That last thought resonated through Derek’s mind. He’s unfair -I’m fair -his reasons -my irrelevance -He’s the boss now, so who am I? Stacy giggled. Maybe it’s better that you be low IQ. Why? Everyone pities you. He turned away from her. A man can’t always run away, hide, concede defeat by default. Stacy, I want to be more than this -this... But she stopped him.

Wisdom begins with competency, she taught. Competency begins with circumcision of the mind. Who said this? Koang deLambé. He was our founder. That which impedes is removed. There are many myths about physical circumcision to ensure it begins early, thereby being most painful, thus memorable, as is most easy to forgive and most aesthetic. But being now grown, it is simply a nick. Stacy showed Derek the thin stretch of skin underside of his manhood that impeded his full functioning. Forgive God and your life is blessed. So what happens after you’re competent? Experience -the unlocked mind craves learning through doing. That is all. Derek sat on the edge of the bed. There was a small container of alcohol in which a rough pumice stone was steeping. Also a new unwrapped scalpel blade, and a pack of gauze bandage. Stacy watched to see what he would do. What do these things mean? You decide. Circumcise your mind before your flesh. And he knew it was a test.

With the blade he had to be dead sure, which he wasn’t. With the stone, he could be brutal yet highly accurate. You appreciate the irony. He nodded. One of the ways the mind is circumcised is by understanding your actions and their consequences don’t always succeed. We need God to tell us about our bodies, our souls. He will only tell the circumcised else it falls on deaf ears. Stacy took the stone and broke it in half. She held his strip of skin by her teeth and stretched it out. If this were anesthesia, it sure worked. Derek didn’t even feel the rip.

2. Johore

Derek sat in on a village gathering. The locals approved of his wife (at least they assumed she was), because she covered up her face and hair as stipulated by Moslem tradition. They ate with their hands from one large dish of rice and gravy, served on a tray. They drank rose-scented essence stirred carelessly with milk and ice cubes. Derek opened up and asked them, who’s the boss here? Penghulu, they answered -the village headman. And who’s above the Penghulu? The Penchadang. He’s called the proposer, a brother with glasses and a stringy goatee answered. Johore now extends beyond the strait -we’ve taken over Singapore and Battam. And you are a nation? Essentially, loosely speaking. We’re not officially a country. Can we meet him? Certainly, he would be glad to see people from far away.

The proposer of the Federal administration was a lowly, Ghandi-like figure. I’m now in Singapore, but only a weekend, then I fly to Kuala Lumpur. Brother, let me first walk across the causeway. We shall meet in Johore Baharu.

Derek found out that the man was poor and mostly vegan. He loved monkey head mushrooms and carrot cooked with baby corn in a soy-based gravy. You’re Chinese. Yes. And Christian. The whole purpose of electing an unlikely, minority proposer is that he cannot gather support to rise up against the Sultan -the true leader. Then what good are you? An instrument of the King’s soft power. You have brought us international clout by coming here. You and your wife both have powers. Derek, yours is the gift of knowledge and interpretation. With that, the proposer placed his hands on Derek’s temples and freed him from decades of emotional binding by his western compatriots. What you seek, you shall know.

Derek chose to sleep in a pondok. A small top-covered platform, raised above ground on stilts. Around him, the sporadic thuds of falling ripe Durian. It was night, and he and Stacy were in near darkness if not for the kerosene lamp between them. He had exchanged his watch for a checkered sarong to sleep in. He rolled a length of it into a pillow and the rest was a blanket. Stacy floated in her cloak, touching nothing. Far away, the hoot of a barn owl, tasked with killing cobras. Nobody would look for him here.

What is safety? I don’t know, Master, answered Pete. It’s because you’re whole, and I am not. Your ignorance is increasingly willful. Master, my service to you is impeded but by yourself. We have traced Derek. He is among Moslems. The last thing we need now is to trigger a jihaad. The amount of weight Mark had lost had shriveled him, surviving mainly on pitted olives and yogurt. Pete, go there -to Johore. Do what you feel. Do it before Hoag sows there. The last words came wavering, forced, as if through tears.

Derek and Stacy floated over the village, the Johoreans called their kampung. They spotted the sarong and Pagoda tee-clad proposer, hitching a ride on the back of a bio-fueled scooter towards where blimps were docked, between the leaning coconut trees and birdsong. They have DeLambé vessels, said Stacy. Master Koang designed them, woven from a thread, outwards, according to the exact structure of space. Derek made an effort to understand. Shall we fly one? Stacy smiled. He had developed genuine curiosity over his normally blunt reactions.

3. Politicos vs faith

Stacy, being a Tailor, had measured the small Chinese man they called the proposer, who was barely taller than herself -and she was petite. He had granny glasses with Transition lenses, and a tuft of white hair on light brown skin. His sarong was woven with dark checks and his shirt, bleached clean cotton. It had buttons under the neck, unfastened, she read its label: ‘Garuda Pagoda’, above the embroidered logo of an eagle atop a temple spire. Otherwise, the 60 miles per hour clip they were doing suited her just fine. She would have time to ask him some questions.

Is Johore truly a sovereign state? Yes, currently. The federation is divided. Only the south is strong enough to be peaceful. There is civil war in Borneo, and north of here, the federal territory, Kuala Lumpur lies in ruins, under the rule of Moslem militia. Fallout of the Middle East wars. Control over the Malacca Strait by your government. Stacy stared at her feet and so too Derek. His newly released powers feeding him jumbled streams of information. He glanced out the window and thought he caught Pete hanging in the air. It gave him goosebumps. Maybe it was a premonition.

What your Hoag has done -mix politics and form a spiritual executive is essentially wrong, said the proposer. All attempts to discipline a heart though letting it see what it wants and chooses leads to calamity. I know what you tailors are about. And you’re not the only one of them who’s going to land in Kuala Lumpur. Pete, whispered Stacy. The proposer nodded.

And Derek asked, is violence wrong? Why wrong? Using force upon someone, is it sustainable? The only measures that fail are ones that eventually weaken. I should have killed Mark. Possibly, the Ghandi-like figure of the Penchadang seemed to retreat. Derek, nobody gets to decide who lives or dies who in effect lives and dies. It’s a dirty solution that leaves behind knots and rips once it catches on. A madness. Then should someone destroy me for my self-worth or lack of it? It seems to be my fate. A slew of bad decisions is what earned you that fate. Wisdom can only delay it.

Derek’s heart started thumping in his breast and he got up to walk to the end of the cabin, pour himself an Americano. Stacy asked the Penchadang about the end of times. Religion proper started with Ibrahim. If you imagine the world as a rectangle with 4 sections left-right, up-down, the top right would be the actions of the Jews as they fled the center line which represents prophecy. Fleeing thus, they filled that section with essentially the Law. When Jesus died, it introduced a gap between left and the new covenant right. Miss, the push to the left essentially failed and was filled up with darkness, ignorance. But it was the only way that through that thin strip -the middle ages, that Jews could transition under cover to the left and into the bottom left section where they were persecuted until the time of Mohammed, when they were let to enter again the right position. Following that, key thinkers among God’s people shaped human history both leftist and rightmost, entwining around the center line which is God’s will. So the Enlightenment occurred, the Renaissance, and the Great Wars. So touching is human history from the point of view of salvation.

Money is running out. It is not what you think. Dollars are not being flushed down the toilet. People are just not working hard in key industries, synchronously with the rise of AI which will replace such jobs. Here in Malaysia, money is given out with or without work being done. Stacy thought a while. Is the economy broken? It’s exhausted. She looked at Derek. He was listening.

4. A new future

The airship docked to the sky bridge connecting the green and silver Twin Towers, decapitated halfway up by western missiles. DeLambé Wau kite drones swirled around them, above the lush tropical greenery that had overgrown the city. And as they disembarked, they saw a cloaked figure standing atop the bridge’s roof, a large pair of scissors in his hand. Stacy knew there would be no mercy. Where was the proposer? Was he safe?

The sky turned pale blue, the descent of a time bubble. Stacy, stay out of this. The scissors blades began to glow red-hot. Pete, remember when we were friends? We were never truly friends, Derek. Tailors tolerated your insolence and ungratefulness. We remember who a traitor is as well. Pete lunged at now defenseless Derek and the once superman’s life scrolled past his eyes. Was he worthless as a janitor’s mop bucket? A or B, son? His thoughts began to separate into yes or no, true or false. And the simple mind he had started working faster than Pete’s. He saw the Tailor’s preternatural leap in slow motion. His left shoulder dipped. Pete’s blades grazed its flesh. It burnt like a hot soldering iron. There would be scars to admire later. He thought of Stacy, making love to her. Would she still oblige after he finished off her fellow believer? He was aware of his hands, holding back the press of the hot steel gradually poisoning his blood. It smelt of lead and sulfur. It wouldn’t be long before he blacked out from toxic shock. *Turn around, Derek* came the voice of his mother. *Yes, like a dance* Dad’s voice. Where are you? Derek sought his folks with his last ounces of strength. There was no reply. Mindlessly, Derek obeyed. Left or right? Came the question. And the answer filtered through his simple brain. Right it was. He cried out as the blades tore through muscle and tendon but at least he was free, Pete’s arm tucked below his, he dragged the Tailor towards the skin of the airship. Here’s some cloth for your scissors. He kicked Pete towards the craft. Pete’s head turned to him with a look of pity and frustration, the deLambé vessel wobbled as Derek free-falled off the docking ladder. He saw the hole in space-time roll and ripple as it consumed his friend. Once they were. Now they shared the same fate -death. And as he fell, he saw again, in slow motion, the Tailor, ripped apart by the very structure of space itself.

You see, our airships aren’t dangerous. There are never explosions, just gentle, slow implosions. We fly at low altitude to prevent casualties. Derek opened his eyes. His shoulder had been bandaged, and his head lay in the proposer’s lap. Who caught me? Where’s Pete? But the wise man put 2 fingers on his forehead and he knew to be silent.

Stacy hovered over the wreck of the airship. *Pete can you hear me? Are you alive?* She knew Hoag would send his dogs if he weren’t. They had a saying, very often decisions cut both ways. The lesson of the levered blades. Amidst the thread left behind, she found his weapon, fizzing against the juicy tropical grass. Thread gathering itself into a perfect sphere the size of a baseball. She picked both these up. A feeling of being watched from the trees, so many of them. And she was alone. Cut it off right here, Stacy, she told herself. Unused to shouting, she raised her voice, Pete, if you’re still alive, go home! Abruptly, a breeze rustled the treetops, sweeping dried leaves as it passed. She left, unsure. Perhaps the matter was closed.

5. War writ large

The FEED lord, Hoag received Master Mark. Pete had returned. How is he doing? Mark didn’t reply. After a time, the Tailor admitted, Derek seems to have developed a new power, a power from God just like ours. Except his is raw, dangerous, not being bound by a profession. Mark, if your man was harmed, we will revisit Kuala Lumpur. This time, leave nothing standing. Mark nodded.

Derek’s shoulder healed rapidly under care of the Moslem magi. Stacy put her hand on it, and her little finger fitted into the deep scar. Pete isn’t a fool. He knows you want to live, he can easily take care of himself. The implosion merely chased him away -when he lost the advantage. He won’t be so easy to push off the next time.

America had split into two halves. There was the Federal Emergency Directive (FEED) run by Governor Hoag, and the Expeditionary Survival Force (the XF), which contained the military, and almost every God-fearing Christian fighter from the Anglic empire of the West, now swollen with nearly 20 million men and women.

The proposer had reported to the King. And that night, having received his gracious wage of 10 half-silver pieces, treated Derek and Stacy to kosher bakkuteh and durian. The tree bark, cinnamon and star anise stewed fatty beef was unlike anything Derek had tasted. The durian, bitter-sweet and creamy, with a garlicky after-odor. He and Stacy dug in greedily. Sorry, the Tailor said. We haven’t been eating well since we ran out of things to barter. The tanned old man nodded and smiled, pouring more broth over her rice. Eat up, he said. She could read his thoughts. This might be their last good meal before the third world war. A half-silver piece played in his palm as if he were weighing how much these Americans were worth to him and the state of his religion. Were it to be, there would be Christianity no more?

It was a rainy early morning in the muddy city, and the proposer’s ankles were covered in spatters of the brown stuff. The nanocotton sarong hung around his head and over his shoulders. Derek’s the same. Stacy’s hood was better yet, and she hovered above the slick, puddly ground spilled over with flood water from the Klang and the Gombak. Fare thee well, friends, said the old man.

On the airship back to Johore, they discussed their plans. To overfly Singapore, change over at Battam, where an Indonesian Republic heavy airship would take them to Kutai, east across the restive South China Sea, over the breadth of Borneo to its east coast. There they might find a living, and escape the hostilities.

It was nightfall when they interchanged. The lights were nearly all out in Johore and in Singapore, just the city center was lit. It was pitch dark in Battam except for the beacon of the mooring tower. Hundreds of Indonesians, a proud, diverse people, dispersed over dozens of islands waited to board the kapal besar under just a couple of flickering LED tubes. 13 minutes, said the station manager. Derek twiddled his thumbs. He was a long way from what he’d term ‘home’. He was glad for Stacy who insisted on keeping their money, now down to 3 bronze pieces which was enough to buy a couple of simple meals to share. They exchanged glances, and she put her hand in his. Maybe the XF’s million strong arms would eventually find them, FEED’s network of spirit-hungry zealots imprison and mark them. It was a masterful strategy by the Americans to break the union into just two manageable parts that did not interfere. They could see a winking in the dark. That’s the heavy airship, someone nudged Derek, as if it were the pride of his nation. Indeed it could carry as many passengers as a 747, in far greater comfort. A rushing roar filled the station. Their hearts beat faster.

6. Confrontation

Kyoko and the Hawaiian were plucking paw-paws or papayas, betik as they were called locally, when they spotted a roll on the horizon. OMG, it’s a tsunami! Did you feel a tremor? Boss spun the dial on his Apple Watch -no natural disasters on the emergencies' notifier. She rifled through her sling bag for their scope. Her jaw fell and she trembled. Kyoko, what do you see?

The tanned bikini-bodied woman was once an innocent college student, she had an American boyfriend. He was a blues musician. After he, and the other greats played by the Sumidagawa, outside the bar and grill, and he called out her name on national TV -the song she inspired him to write, she met him by that famous river. They exchanged addresses before a passing ship unloading party-goers interrupted their blossoming relationship. It was as if she were invisible to him as he played. And he only really saw the painted lips of those in tight kimono. He downed much beer that night, and she felt inferior to those practiced in the arts of hospitality. She visited America eventually, the Canyon, but all she found of him was a wreck of a mobile home with a sign ‘up for sale’. In the USA, every man is a king. Even those kings of the road. And she was lost were she not taken in by her distant cousin from Hawaii. But that’s another story to tell.

Boss plucked the scope from her hand. The wave was turning, sweeping south around the underside of Borneo. He had never seen anything like it. If it’s going after Derek, we have to warn him. But Kyoko just stood there shivering. Same as the day Gail and Jerry were murdered beside her and she, spattered with their blood, had fortuitously fainted.

At the disembarking platform in Kutai, Derek and Stacy found that they were being tailed. Two large men wearing ornate batik shirts. They didn’t seem armed, just a little bothered. Hello -hello Mr Curtis Truck. Mrs Truck? They called after them. Mr Truck, do you know the Christian name of the Penchadang? One man asked, a little out of breath. Alan, said Derek. He gave us some money, we used it to travel somewhere safer. Mr Truck, Kutai extends a warm welcome to you and your wife. They shook hands vigorously. Feel free to enjoy our national capital. You will find it ever as modern as any large city in the west. Dawn broke over East Borneo’s coast and the high rises glinted with pink overtones. Overhead, other heavy airships drifted, EV air taxis coursed between the scrapers. A lattice of enclosed pedestrian walkways overlaid the lower towers, linking up squares of multi-level public gardens and parks.

Stacy, will you marry me -for real? She nodded, silent -as if keeping back a secret. Then a smile broke over her face and she laughed. He buried her face in his chest. Tears welling in his eyes. Later that morning, they made their way to the proposer’s private suite. It was at the Hilton, maintained just for him and his friends, the hotel staff informed them. Madam, may we stow your scissors for you?

They didn’t take the collapsed deLambé sphere from her.

Surprisingly, or not so surprisingly, the proposer’s suite was next to the Presidential suite but it was small, much smaller. The bathroom was tiny but well ventilated and the bed was a fold-up cot. There was a large floor to ceiling window which overlooked the coast. Derek thought he saw something like a rolling pipe wave in the distance.

7. They all fall down

Derek and Stacy had never seen a rumored arm of the Expeditionary Survival Force. Yea, that was what it was, sweeping over Kutai like a tidal wave. Men and women that marched and camped like swarms of army ants, gathering forces as they went, living off the land.

In short order, they were brought before the Praetor of the Pacific Imperium.

Huge floating tower blades, probably what churned up the man-made tsunami, now dotted the city. Are these also Tailor-made? I don’t know. They waited within the point of the central blade while the Praetor, seated on a swivel chair delicately devoured a box of Krispy Kreme donuts. You know, Derek -and Stacy, and it’s a privilege to meet both of you together. *munch munch* -I just can’t get enough of these durian custards. Right away my lord. The Praetor’s aide looked suspiciously like the girl from the flour mill / packing factory. Stacy was jealous. She eats well -we all do. Now Derek Curd, on behalf of the XF of the United States of America, with the authority of the Governor General of the Federal Emergency Directive, I hereby extend the offer of Director Lotus Yap -that you be brought to home soil -placed under her custody. Home -our town? Yes. But the Tribulation, hasn’t it taken? Tel Aviv has been destroyed. Damascus and Beirut very soon. Jerusalem, eventually. Prophecy is always rolling, has been since Jesus died. What have Hoag and his collaborators been doing about it? Derek… Sir -no lord -what have you done to America?

Derek, I’m just a guy in a plush chair given whatever he wants. I read out directives from Hoag and his supernatural administration. I don’t make the rules. I don’t write the script -thank you, Amanda. *munch* She looked at Derek a little too long and Stacy, somewhat emaciated, stared back.

Lord Praetor, Derek knelt before the Roman curule-like judgment seat, it looked like a throne made from immaculately bleached ribs. The sum of a man’s actions, as even inequity prevents the full unraveling of privilege. And missteps -are they not more useful in the end than inaction? I do not regret doing all I did, but that the power in me sustained me not, when I needed it. If anything, I failed from a particular prejudice, and that, I with love, forgiveness, attempted to triumph over. And in doing so, never one to initiate a fight, happened to lose omniscient control to those who trusted me not, hunted me down. Lord Praetor, the story of my life is unfinished. The scepter of Hoag, father of the separation of state from God, the company he keeps, choose wisely between us. What can yet grow, let grow. But trim off what is festering -the empires of the West.

A side door opened and Little Lotus strode out. She had a gas gun in her hand, clad in a white gold bodysuit. She looked as an angel. In later years, her sideways pose would be immortalized on tee shirts as she shot Derek with a toxin bead. Stacy was confronted by Pete, still recovering from the implosion. He cast a time bubble around them, moving quicker than her, flung his erstwhile apprentice into space.

8. Major Tom

Space is like a fluid. It stirs up / accelerates, gathers its density, forming mass, left stretched out, it is a vehicle of particles that hitch through the lattice of time. But time actually doesn’t exist. Waiting does. Moving does. Being in another place takes waiting. Relativity is merely replacing time in all of Newton’s calculus by the simplified concept of patience and its degrees. Thus Stacy was not harmed. Derek, however, would soon breathe his last.

The Praetor turned to face the viewport of the mother blade as Derek heaved, blood, spilling from his chest. Was this the end? Stacy, can you hear me?

Little Lotus stood over her father. Derek could barely breathe. With his last ounce of strength, he steeled himself, looked his child in the eye. When he passes out, take him away. I don’t like the smell of blood with my coffee. Life is forever a protest, an adversarial remonstration, a defiant shout at heaven: I AM. Little Lotus wondered, as Derek’s head flopped back down to the floor, sputtering spittle. He swept at the slowly spreading pool of his blood -perhaps an instinct from when once a god could help put it back, but the rusty red liquid resisted his flailing. He lay there, dying -something he’d never once anticipated.

 

Midnight, and I'm springing to life...

Worked out and showered. Since I started doing slower push-ups and cross knee sit-ups, I've seen more fat burn into muscle. I am looking better and feeling fitter. Fitness is good for the immune system and to stave off old-age diseases (I am 50 this year). I can concentrate better and think clearer.

I wrote a few hundred words of SDU (my novel) this morning-afternoon and am eager to add a few hundred more even tho it's midnight. 

Almost 1am. Have to take my meds and brush soon. Just 2 sub-chapters to go before wrap up of chapter 7. I think I may make it by 3am.

Half an hour to write the final sub-chapter -a short one. Now onto chapter 8. Will try to finish it tomorrow. The PDF is yet to be updated.

Chapters 9 and 10 will be written EOM, after a couple days break. Took me 11 days to finish chp 7 doing 500 words a day on average.

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Semi-retirement is nice. Doing what I enjoy, not to much strict a schedule. Last night, I restrung my Kepma guitar with its original steel strings. I will transfer the d'Addario nylon strings to my C40 classical guitar. It should sound sweeter than the Zikos it currently has.

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Past 3am. Just worked out. Feeling good. Was unable to do much writing in chp 8. Made a start of 100 words or so then gave up, tired. Earlier, I spent 5 hours editing EOSotB. It's done well at last. I think I can only hope to finish chp 9 before the month rolls over.

Tomorrow, should be getting fresh funds in. $100. Would like to change my G-Shock's battery myself. I had already opened the case and extracted the 2 mini power cells without any trouble.

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Woke up late, slept 6 hours from 4am to 10am. Have to find some inspiration to write chp 8. Liew witches going out of control. Revealed some of the secrets of this fallen group following me around, stealing, murdering in my name. Not sure what to do about them.

Saturday, April 25, 2026

Fell asleep without writing much more...

Subchapters 6, 7, 8 were not completed last night tho I slept at 3am plus. Today, chores. And I have to use the loo but there's no time yet. Disinfected my room with some diluted Dettol spray which keeps vermin away. Had some flatbread and bean curry for brunch.

We are making headway against the Liew witchy scourge. Most people now see things the right way, and LiLian and her family are not very dangerous anymore. Regardless, I cannot do my writing just yet. Maybe later, after dinner.

Managed to get cleaned well. That red label Lotus TP works a charm and flushes easily. Usually, I dry wipe, once clean, use a little handwash, finishing up with moist TP. Yea it uses lots more paper than usual but it keeps me clean. Need to shower at 1pm, then sweep at 2:30pm. Usually spend 10 minutes in the shower, twice a day. Good to be clean. Last night, the telepathy was intense and I forgot to fully wash.

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We were in a church mindspace discussion and the topic was on saving souls who sinned in the telepathy wars. I thought, to give them wisdom to share would make them stronger and more loved. We explained the parable of the sower.

Then they asked us for 'forgiveness' whereupon we studies the unmerciful servant. You can find both Parables in Matthew. Ran into some difficulties as to what forgiving from the heart meant. At risk of splitting hairs, we think it means a mind-body reaction. The mind cuts its losses - an intellectual reasoning, and the body reverses its conditioning to hate / fear.

I'm not sure how it's all done, except that one is with Spirit, and not a religious imposter.

As for the sower parable, we thought it might mean essentially what it means, but again at risk of being too analytical, we come across,

Farmer -> Kernels -> Field -> Types of earth / soil -> Crop -> Angels / Harvesters

And the meaning of it must be,

Jesus + God -> Kingdom unseen -> Wild world -> Church with Spirit -> we who believe -> God's messengers -> back to God.

This makes sense because the sower, God, is not a fool -the world is wild. Nor can a person receive who has not Church. Nor can a man on his own bear a crop. But we, as a whole, believing, are the crop.

It may ruffle certain people's feathers and I do welcome a counter-analysis.

I can’t write much tonight. Already it’s nearing midnight. I have been working for God instead. Maybe write a few hundred words more from where I left off this morning. Liew witches have been bedeviling me and my church, famous people included. Perhaps a good shower will do.

Friday, April 24, 2026

Halfway thru chapter 7 of SDU...

Another 2.2k words to write before bed tonight if I want to close chp 7 today. Then do chp 8 in the weekend. Planning to rest a bit before chp9 and 10. Made do with one shower today. Disinfected my room and butt with diluted Dettol. A brief and hot rain fell heavily as I finished. Mom found my old 4GB USB2.0 Corsair Flash Voyager. The one encased in rubber. Must have bought it in 2006 -20 years ago.

My batik shirt @Shopee Malaysia got here at last and is a leetle tight round the shoulders. Otherwise, it fits well. Supposed to be XXL. It is indeed made from fine grade cotton. I think the store name is Ilsam Group. Appears to be made in Indonesia. Just now, I wrote Derek and Stacy into Nusantara. It may be a minor prophecy. My friend from school (now resident in Indonesia) admitted Jesus may be the Messiah. I told him that I am also waiting for more signs before I do anything concrete. Take it slow, old friend. The sign deepens, my paisley pants are a Persian-derived pattern, just as tonight, I was the designated cook (Cookman pants). The ABY today is 6a / Hexagram 57 -"...advantageous to see the great man" -Dr W K Chu.

In other translations, 'the superior man acts on his understanding by implementing it in the world' [jamesdekorne.com].

I am not an evangelist but all those late night mindspace talks where we laughed and cried together from the ups and downs of comparative religion, the serious parts and the odd parts, odd because nobody can perfect their minds to that degree etc. and some things are just lost in history. I am not a prophet or evangelist but yea, I like to talk comparative religion. All religion leads to God, that is sanctioned by the government and to alter one's customs is inadvisable but right now, the world is going out of whack. Perhaps a sign will be shown. Perhaps we will all admit Jesus is the Messiah -someday...

SDU chapter 7 nears completion. Just 1.5k words to go. Each chapter is circa 4.5k words.

I removed the degrading cover from my pocket sized ESV. There was a photo frame insert that looked like a certificate. It was tough and glossy so I used it to wrap the old Bible I bought circa 10 years ago. I may take it on the road as my travel reference. I wonder if I now actually have a diploma in Bible teaching? Have I tonight been confirmed / selected? And why?

My heart beats faster.

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It's midnight and I don't think I can write 1.5k words in 3 hours. It would be a stretch to do 3k words in one day. Hoag attacks the Spice Isles but I haven't decided how. There is also an arc completion for Kyoko and Hawaiian guy, because I never got to it (a subplot merging in).

Wrote a post on my Medium on tonight's synchronicity. Brushed. Will work out soon, maybe at 12:30am. Take my meds at 1am.

Feeling burnt out but managed to do some outlining. Dug up more synchronicity: PRS stands for public reading of scripture and around 516 years ago, Da Vinci discovered earthshine, or moonglow. This very year, something significant could happen. It could begin circa mid May, after / before the new moon.

Thursday, April 23, 2026

Tennis and life…

By request, my mindspace lecture about life as it comes, and living it well. This is because many out there are disillusioned by the wickedness that goes about naturally, confidently, such that many do not care about love.

It’s sad.

There are just 3 things about tennis. There is confidence, equipment, and physics. If you don’t want to win points you will lose and give up, and all the lessons fees will go to waste. You will be a loser the whole of your life and people will pass you by. It happened to me.

If you don’t understand your equipment, you will never succeed. Your racket should be something you question all the time -is it helping me? Knowing upgrades will help you, you don’t bother, yet install all your Linux / Mac updates, knowing nothing of security or advanced features! If you don’t find out your equipment’s function you will never get anywhere fast. And a lot of life is equipment.

I never learned to solder but I can program.

Physics in tennis is amazing. Body and ball physics. Your body does not connect with the racket first. It connects body to ball. The racket is part of your body you accept no matter its balance, size, and weight. When you remove racket, you remove footwork, you remove stroke, everything simplifies to how to get the ball where you want it. You start caring about subtle touches, maximizing stringbed-ball contact, or conversely etc. In life, knowing your objective and recognizing its / your interface is most important.


Now I want to talk on the 25% of invisible ‘power’ we don’t see but sense and how 75% of our happiness is attributed to physical, emotional, mental achievements, possessions. We are stuff people. We csn break down without our possessions and creature comforts. We are social, we need good friends. We are people with hopes and dreams, we need trust and promises.

Soon, it becomes apparent that less than 1% of our happiness comes from reading our Bibles and praying. It should be that way unless you preach for a living. But that 1% is some of the most potent. It is life changing, just as yeast works its way thru bread, God works for those he loves, who love, Him. Then it’s back to possessions and relationships again.

Being a part time online blog preacher, I feel good and am healed whenever I teach. And I don’t know everything, or the faces and names of my readership but it’s important to write these things down for the record. 


I would also like to talk on obeying principles. Principles are most important, it is like the constitution, but in our hearts. Principles, like the Physics we talked about before, determine success of interactions. We are social creatures. The more you know body to body, heart to heart physics, the happier you will all be.

And as I write this, evil witches are pushing on western toddlers to give me pain in my wounded parts then disfigure themselves.

More later…
 
Back from the mall with the Folks. Got more toothpaste and bodywash. Had mee Siam for lunch, and a Hainanese milk coffee. The former, a noodle dish without much protein, just dried tofu and an egg. The squeeze of lime (provided) makes it extra special.
 
British mind forces hugging the Liew witches for having both fought over many people's bodies, minds, and lives. They can't be saved easily and are trash talking kids in the west to cause troubles.
 
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My Tissot (Mom gave me) is running 30s fast per day. At 2:20pm Thursday, it was 6s slow. We'll see how it does before bed tonight.

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By request, westerners have asked me, what and when does Jesus Christ allow us rest and respite, and some pleasures? We dipped into 2Thess and 1Tim, because they are my favorite letters of Paul. And we learnt that being in Christ we should spread the word / tradition / example of the apostles. We should do this with the practice godliness -which is simply being sincere in what we teach. And the teaching is simple -I will explain. Furthermore we should work hard not to burden others while we teach and also not to destroy the high knowledge by claiming to be higher than Christ or the apostles.
 
Teaching gospel is utmost simple. Show what you have inside so people can decide if you are to be trusted and what trusting you can do for them. This, to my mind, is what Jesus Christ would have you do since Paul is gone and we never met!
 
In effect, there are many things a person can do to see if he's on the right track. Sacrifice, prayer, fasting, charity, to travel to afar, -yea all these can bring to you a good clean feeling. Personally, I like to do charity and to sacrifice.
 
So when does Jesus allow us to eat our bread? Does someone tell you? Does Jesus show you? To say I can sex now that I'm all done with is wrong. To say the opposite is not the case mostly. Oh, the Spirit will guide you. O, the traditions still hold.
 
But I say, we eat our spiritual bread just as old times people ate their physical bread. And we eat our physical bread just as we eat our spiritual bread. Sounds like an equation.
 
Bread is received with thanks and blessings (not nowadays when you can store buy it). If someone, after we work at gospel hard, gives us spiritual bread, eat it and let it nourish your soul.
 
If we work hard on doing physical labor, then we eat of the physical bread without crisis of conscience.
 
If our work internally and externally match up, we can have both easily, and that takes wisdom and planning from the beginning.
 
What does 'match up' mean? It simply means that we do not conflict in giving out our teaching. And it is teaching, spreading the word / gospel that Christ commands us. Not a mystery. Just tell others who need it. You don't need me as a prophet.
 
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It came to be that questions arise regarding God. Is he real? How can we know unless He revealed it to us? I previously stated that I saw a miracle and I nowhere found any proof it was by Jehovah or an angel or anything. Would God leave a clue? Probably not. So how can a man tell he is being watched over?
 
The Bible gives us 3 very potent proofs that we have / need a God. The first is original sin (always checking, 'are we good'). The second is genetic mutations that tie in with alien beings (Genesis, the Flood). The third is the so-called 'collective unconscious', otherwise known as the Kingdom within us. We are more special than flesh and mind can conceive. Supernatural powers exist.
 
Original sin -the disobedience of Adam and Eve. Adam and Eve had just disobeyed God. In the beginning, Eve had no fear. Then she, naked, gave Adam eat the apple too, and he ate. It is written that their eyes were then opened and saw they were naked.
 
They had no doubt of God's love altho they disobeyed. Perhaps because they didn't right away die. What shame or guilt then overcame them were they naked? Being naked -the term is stressed as if it were anathema. What can be wrong with seeing your body as it could do what?
 
It would be a mistake to say that a third party did not cause it. For God asked Adam, why did you hide? And Adam replied he was naked. God said, who told you so? So we have disobedience GREATER THAN love GREATER THAN sexuality GREATER THAN death GREATER THAN god. Thus did Adam and Eve become as gods. And this is why we carry original sin in the manner described. Most say it is anthropological. Well, it is. But it involves God, not just our feelings.

Tuesday, April 21, 2026

Tackling the problem in mindspace...

I made adjustments to the Wa language I invented some month or two back. This one is much better I think. Haven't asked DeepSeek yet. 

https://medium.com/@chnkngyp/wa2-a-teach-learn-language-wrapper-479588f29bd3

But getting down to work on the telepathy crisis is the main focus here. We need some concrete steps to combat the evil sucking our blood either directly or thru a web of relations or friends. I prayed and asked the Spirit and here are 3 things it said we could do,

  1. Behave well
     
  2. Spend sufficiently
     
  3. Don't linger
I think, as usual God is brief and correct. We must show love / forgiveness for one another, pamper ourselves, and not dwell on others' mistakes, even virtues. Try to be self-contained, morally and financially. I think we must also keep up with our friends and relations outside of the mind and keep them safe / happy by giving them stuff and love etc.
 
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Interactions of the Liew witchy generations with the Americans, 5 points,
  1. Money was tight in America at some point, maybe in 1930(?) and that was when witches bought bonds and invested. Witches such as the Liew 6, know when to put down and pull out money. To say they caused the great depression would be untrue, but they predicted it and helped it along.
     
  2. War is something witches enjoy. In some way, they parallel the Bible, which is why Jesus spoke in parables -it was because of the insidious wisdom among women of high IQ. This current war with Iran, Israel etc. was the culmination of witch manipulations and riding on the Bible's prophecy. What can they do wrong? You may ask. The witches take spoil -money, even souls (sent to hell or enslaved).
     
  3. Destruction of the Jews who believe in Messiah. Witches such as Liew's coven, are firmly opposed to Jesus and envision a golden age of man, side by side with the Devil. I kid you not. They hate God and His son.
     
  4. Shoving around people who are 'saved', bright lights, those who shine with gospel, truth, love. Witches appear to fawn over them, but in reality, they are jealous. No witch can fully enjoy gifts of God so they destroy sinful people's talents, write over them, and push others to eclipse them, not to buy their creations.
     
  5. I'm not sure what is the 5th most important thing. IMHO, witches destroy great leaders, be they pastors or presidents. The shepherd struck, the flock scattered. Through the ages, witches have helped found cults, push celebrities to suicide, make leaders embarrassed, start trends, innocuous on the surface, but imprinting generations with impure thoughts.
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DeepSeek was optimistic my language, Wa2 would be useful but it said there were plusses and minuses which I agreed to mostly. Wa3 words may have to be tacked on.
 
I think, there should be a class called 'separators' and 'joiners'. I chose the sounds, ta-te-ti, borrowed from French music notation. So, now we can say what came before or after an event. In fact, an event is a joining of Wa2 words by these sounds.
 
If Ee-eey’d is gossip (from ee - you, and y'd -to talk). Then "John told me a secret" might be J'nn te y'd wa wa-way'd. "His car was damaged in an accident", Ee k'arr te pui. K'h being the word for car. We left together would use a joiner, sounding like, Wa ti-ti ee t'raah. T'r being to leave.
 
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Back from an outing to the downtown mall with Mom. Must've been 2 hours of walking. We took home a Subway to share -for lunch and drank some canned green tea. Saw a cool Citizen in the Japanese used goods shop but it was missing a part. Nice watch, just 250RM.
 
More writing SDU today. Hope to complete chapter 7.
 
Circa 9pm. Worked out and am feeling recharged. Hope my batik shirt arrives tomorrow. Helped make a tasty western dinner for the folks. Liew kid damaging all our relationships by impersonating us to one another. Will try writing more circa midnight.

Sunday, April 19, 2026

Still coding, things came up…

Church matters came up today, and the lower classes from the UK and the witchy armies formerly of Liew, my neighbor in 1/38, needed some comforting. The sorcery over the world seems not easy to bring to an end.

In the end the plans of William roll on, behind him, the puppet masters from Asia. I was talking with some people in mindspace, and we discussed Jewish heritage. Many people have Abraham’s blood. Few have nephilim blood, but most have mixed blood from those obedient and those disobedient to God. I have both obedient and disobedient blood. But story goes, long long ago, I had some ancestors who were from Turkey, said to be Jews who later settled in Shanghai, then around Beijing, near the port, managing warehouses.

Anyhow, our Pastor is being used as a battering ram on church members, by western controllers. At least it seems so to me. Everything looks sexy from a distance.

11pm. I have to take my meds now. Coding went well, all logically arrayed. Unfortunately, a big bug is keeping the list from filling up. And I need to trace it tonight.
 
Took a shower and am changed into fresh clothes. Ate noodles for supper. Worked out. The Liews seem to be less violent and I can code a bit.

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Was very tired, and slept till circa noon. Feeling okay.
 
Managed to get cleaned well, yet to shower. Node generation is now go, but a bit off for some reason. Something to do with the transistor i/o, I'm guessing. At any rate, I did it logically, without guesswork, and that's important to finishing this project.
 
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This is a story of what the end of the world will be like. The end times are already upon us but when exactly -what year or season, it is still unknown. So the story goes,
 
There was a young boy who grew up with many afflictions. His toes were abnormal and his penis was abnormal, later his chest and teeth were growing abnormal. Because of this, he was worried, every night, when he was along with nothing to do. During the day, at school he was happy and soon he graduated from university. Who would have thought? But he held jobs for only a while and earned little money. Finally, he discovered that there was a fight over him, to use him: the ugly, good for nothing guy. But even so, from 25 he became 50. And was still kicking. And it was at 50 when he bore good fruit. 
 
So this story is like we who are waiting. We suffered so much, and yet God moved us from young to old, new to mature, and we bore fruit according to our talents.
 
We can divine the time of the coming of Jesus from the timeline in our hearts. Because we are not all at the same time bearing fruit of the same kind.
 
For example, if Yap likes computers, and Steve sold him a good one, that is a line -a vector. And if Yap lived beyond Steve, that vector begins to shift, and if Yap -the amazing programmer, died, the line shifts more. And so broadly we can say, when computers become so advanced and lovable, the end will come. I hope you see the example clearly.
 
Why did I tell the story of the unfortunate boy? You must achieve your spiritual milestones and not be worried at all. For in the end of your days, you shall have borne fruit. Bear fruit according to the season and you shall know, as one communion, the rough circumstances of the 2nd coming of our Lord!


6pm, still coding. Realizing I left out some conditions. Looks optimistic I will correctly populate the nodes thru the net lists soon. Helped Mom make dinner. Feeling crushed by the evil Liew family of 6, who used to be my neighbors.
 
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Am up early for psych clinic. The nodes involving Q, the transistor are wrong here and there. Need some extra care for rows which don't start with Q but contain it.
 
Installed OCP, my favorite music player. Also got btop which is nicer than htop which beats top.
 
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Back from psych clinic. Jab went well. Waiting for my parcels. Can't wait to have fresh Eagle King shirts, 3 for me and 3 for Dad. Cost over 100RM.
 
The evil witches are pushing behind the westerners who have, in desperation, smashed up my church. This doesn't seem like the Tribulation has ended as Pastor said. The suffering here is maximum.

My tee shirts are on delivery at 2pm. I switched to Google Docs to finish writing SDU. Also now know how to fix the error in n4s. Being pinned down to my bed, mostly.

Saturday, April 18, 2026

Today, I finish net4spice...

Hopefully my algorithmic assumptions are correct, and I can indeed finish net4spice by late tonight. We are under pressure from antichrists in mindspace. And it seems the afternoon will be spent countering their temptations.

I am writing a function that detects what are outputs or otherwise, inputs, across the rows in the list of components. It will assist the setNode function which is called by the main iterator.

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By request, the 3 most important things about building an intelligent mind -at most any age. Intelligence is the reason people feel good when times are bad and think of bad things when times are good. Most men and women have very rudimentary intelligence, be they western or eastern,

  1. Intelligence is in no way an IQ score or a successful way of thinking. It is not the ability to process and remember like a computer, or connect to many minds and think together. Intelligence is like a soldier knowing how to maintain, disassemble and reassemble his gun. It is understanding the basics of what you have, what your job is -even making a better gun. But first it is just taking apart and putting together things in your life -for the reason it needs it.

  2. As you learn how things work and why things are done, you can move up a step. Telling others to do things that are good for them. Intelligence is reflecting and making decisions. In a way it is like moving up a rank -being a manager, a successful one. There are tactless managers and kind ones. But that is the next point.
     
  3. When you are good at basics and teaching, directing others, you have to learn what's in their hearts. In this way, an intelligent man or woman ensures they are safe from the lower ranks. 

So you see basic intelligence is very easy to develop for yourself and in your family. In later writings, I will post on superlative intelligence -how to become very very good at something you love.

I will now try to tell you a secret method of becoming good at what you love doing. The reason it's secret is because it's so simple. Just follow the leader. Pick someone who's good at what you like and analyze why they're good at it. This is just done by aping, not by opening their minds. People need to read manuals, to see things broken down for them, sometimes to have their life's direction changed.

For example, I like lotsa stuff, but mainly I work on things to do with logic. I am a logician and I always catch up with the latest thinking on many a topic involving IQ, EQ, spiritual intelligence etc. I do all the things above, comparing leaders of faith etc. to find their best ideas, breaking them down, not being afraid to be wrong. Helping others with my new knowledge. Blazing fresh ground.

Thursday, April 16, 2026

Went far from home today…

I accompanied Dad to get my mental disability card renewed. We took 3 trains. Spent 5 hours out. Had traditional Malay food. I was thinking of getting myself a batik print cotton shirt. Maybe in the weekend. Coded a bit earlier, and made some progress on net4spice. 

Past 10pm. Yet to work out, take my meds, brush. Did shower, tho. Triggered something in mindspace tonight that may solve the witchcraft crisis. It’s important we keep everyone safe as possible and feed them words to say.

We even neutralized the poisons and viruses the Liew witches had been distributing. It’s time for an end to pandering to the unreasonable Liew family of witches.

Coded a bit more and am close to a breakthrough. Have to figure out where a lot of None values were generated. Found the source, a still forming array.

Worked out. Feeling good.
 
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Coding is going okay. There are weird values I have to figure out how came about.


Okay, coding has shown some consistent, logical results but all the node numbers are sequential somehow. I need to look into the propagator function and the reducer function.

Looking into a simpler solution, which is to identify pairs of components in subsequent rows. This would remove need for my recursive reducing function. It gets simpler.

Meanwhile Liew witches attack constantly. Would like to break from coding, maybe make my paper bow sight later tonight.
 
Was gassy, now am comfortable. Coming up to 10pm. Wrote a Medium article on Jesus' 2nd coming. Now trying to wrap up the node generation problem. I have high hopes.
 
Deferred the node generation to tomorrow. Things may be brewing tonight that I started this afternoon, which is unraveling the lies told by the family of 6 witches -the Liews, once my neighbors. 

Wednesday, April 15, 2026

Chapter 7 of SDU is delayed...

Not sure if I can finish it today. It's already past 5pm. There was a request for me to get married to one of my neighbors. All of us have trouble earning money, which is probably why we are living in shoeboxes.

As far as I can see, I have only 3 money-earning ideas left:

  1. I can improve my piano skills and become a part time teacher 
     
  2. I can form a social tech startup like Mastodon etc.

  3. I can make things to sell, like my paper bow sight, or the knot sword

No. 3 is really intriguing. I was thinking of an archery setup made from knots. Not sure how it would work. No. 2 is also interesting. I was thinking of a social app where people could read books together or tell their stories. No. 1 is the easiest. But I need to write a theory sheet or two first. Perhaps I will do 1 and 2, and make that paper bow sight as well. So will do it after dinner.

The book reading app will be called 'Revision' and allows people to post extracts from books they like or are reading, even textbooks or Bible, Koran etc. They will be able to see if anyone has a better one than what they have. There will be offers to book sellers like BFBW etc. to list their titles. I’m not sure what platform to use.

So Revision will be simple text messaging. You can scan up to 5 excerpts per post. People form groups to share, others for study, etc. No talking is allowed except thru scans of text or barcodes. It is something like Pinterest. It can build sales, but that is for other groups: authors. People from related small groups may re-post from authors groups.

As for my piano teaching, I need to bring out my notation and chord progression knowledge. This will influence the melodic development. It will take 3 sheets of paper. Need to teach legato pedaling too, and how to sightread better.

The bow sight, I can’t remember how it works. Need to check..

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So I started on noting down my favorite chords to teach piano. I think I captured the progressions quite accurately. Tomorrow, I will be doing melodic and harmonic scales over the chords. Then on day 3, I will explore the development of motifs and melody opposed to emotion. I will also do 'wrong note progressions'.

No time to write SDU or make any bow sight. Maybe in the weekend.

I sliced the hard cover off my CCB and wrapped the end cards in paper from a Sonic Youth album poster (I have the record, 'Dirty'). The stiff cover was inhibiting to flipping the pages. I didn't want to read it much. This was the Bible I bought for 66.6RM, rounded up. 

We have been roped into a protection network for world leaders. Not just me, but quite a few people who are gentle and have a high tolerance for attacks. Of course, for me, it is a free service. I divided out the work between some friends who are good fighters. And gradually we will spread the word that attacking leaders is wrong.

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By request to teach, I have chosen the topic of belief, faith, unbelief, doubt, power. This ties in with baptism, rebirth, communion, and circumcision. There is actually a puzzle of God for us to view and agree that combined, it is the Father of Jesus. There are 3 points to consider,

  1. Belief, Faith and Doubt cannot exist without POWER. Seeing God's power first hand or thru testimony causes the former 3 things. Miracles are not POWER. Power is God's ability to turn you around internally often thru testimony (which itself is not the POWER).

  2. God is unknowable except thru His Son. The reason Jesus came 2,000 years ago was not to 'do stuff', 'teach stuff'. He came not as a 'scout' or to  'suffer for our sins'. Jesus came because otherwise no man might know God. Without knowing God, all our POWER in worship is misguided. I will explain later.
     
  3. Saying 'I believe in Jesus' is not the same for everyone. 'I cast out demons in his name' is not enough. 'I respect you / worship you' is not enough. 'I was baptised!' is not enough. The secret to Jesus and his saving blood is simply a belief in progress. This was an old teaching. 'I PROGRESS' attracts the Lord. 'I am ready', even is not enough. 'I am sincere', not either. 'I progress in goodness' -this man is one called by the Lord. 

I said I would explain worship. We can worship with our lips. We should worship with our hearts maybe? The human heart cannot worship. We must worship actually, with deeds and possessions. What would you give to a king? Platitudes of loyalty? Tests of allegiance? No, it is by going out and doing his will with our worldly goods (which includes our bodies).

Tuesday, April 14, 2026

Redmi Buds Play slight tip mod…

 


I used some wide-bore KZ Castor tips which I trimmed down to fit the Redmi Play. Even made a small hole for a port that would have been shrouded (visible in the picture). I used a retractable tip pen -one that wasn’t rounded off. It cut thru the silicone easily with pressure and twisting.

Sounds good and was cheap, just 45RM. I heard there were cheaper prices: 38RM, way back then. Feels odd when your best buds are circa $10. I wouldn't have thunk. And the watch I wear most often is a 170RM CBP Casio.

I recently compared 5 earphones:

  1. KZ ZST
  2. KZ Castor
  3. KZ EDX Pro
  4. Shure 112
  5. Fiio FF1

The source was a record player (vinyl, 45 rpm) classical music recording. The ZST performed well. The Castor was soft and a bit tight. The EDX Pro was melodious but sounded too free / uncontrolled. The 112 was flat and therefore not lively. The FF1 was pretty good but not for noisy environments as they are open design.

I finally finished chapter 6 of SDU. Posted it here on DogBlots just now. After lunch, will be heading out on a torture walk. Dad is supposed to buy it. While Mom has her hospital appointment. Might as well start on chp 7 now. In it, we see a different Derek. One who fights power with wisdom. He becomes a MacGyver of sorts. But in the end, just before chapter 8, Derek lies dying. Will he really pass away so soon?

1. Words of the wise

Derek grows smarter 

2. Johore!

He finds friends in high places 

3. Politicos, faith

They discuss faith versus politics (the chart stg1 / st2) 

4. A new future

Hopes of freedom

5. War

The ME war flares up

6. Final battle

Hoag decides to take down Derek, now a local leader

7. Talk of the town

He achieves hero status, fighting off the powerful Americans just with cleverness

8. They all fall asleep

Derek is overpowered and critically wounded

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Almost time to go on my walk. Lotsa gullible kids raised by William in a mad frenzy to feel good / safe / etc. This happened after he committed some bad mind crimes. I actually wasn't there when it happened so I can't confirm, but definitely, now he can't stop feeling threatened.

Saved some money by using some old peripherals for my Fedora rig. A bit late to go on a long walk. May just do a round of the park. Wear my running shoes, circa 4pm. Was lazy to head to the park so I did a round of our block instead. I ran breakneck and was a wee bit out of breath at the end. Took me 3 minutes to recover fully. Feeling fitter. Mind feels clear.

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Still working on chapter 7 of SDU. Tho I submitted it, rough, to a magazine, I will still churn out the chapters. Yesterday, my blog got over 800 views. Planning on finishing the chapter in one day. Then, to rest until the weekend. Do 8, and 9. It will be a minor miracle if I am published so will not be thinking of it.

Dad is going for his doctor's appointment. Will probably head out for lunch with Mom. Drank a latte for breakfast, some soy milk. 

Chapter 6 : Super Derek Underpants

Wow, this was a hard chapter to write. There is a climatic fight between Derek and the Tailors, his wife is dead, and Gabriel takes away his powers. I am starting on chapter 7 tonight. It may also take a while. In the next installment, we see Derek grow in wisdom but will wisdom itself be enough to save him from the witch-hunt of Hoag?

1. Losing Esmeralda

Derek was a satellite now. Space-resistant viruses and bacteria formed a living crust about a ball of oxygenated water. Decaying cells warmed the inside of his cocoon, all regulated by the back of his mind. This was safety, solitude. And no one else could jump into it -it wasn’t on any map or in anybody’s memory but his own. In fact, the ball of cells, dark, reflected no light, nor gave off appreciable heat. In the greenish yellow glow of the Glo-Forever orbs, he observed his half-human form. Merging his cloak with his cells, as an extrapolation of his fused-on underpants wasn’t the best of ideas but the extra power it bestowed him more than made up for it. And, it bypassed the Tailors’ limiting his sexuality. You see, Derek, the less of you we see left out of you, the better. He had agreed. There were government hunters, using powerful supers to fine comb his house, the flour mill, and his wife, for pieces of his skin, or mucus they could analyze. And little Derek-Lotus, she was their bet, not having assimilated a cloak, nor the equal of his other children, including himself. He disappeared any cells they found, but he knew one day he wouldn’t be as careful, and they would turn a key on him, destroy his sweet unconventional existence.

He thought about it a long time. So long, that time bent around his thoughts. And when he awoke, realized he had lost count of how long he’d been meditating, in stasis. *Derek, can you hear me?* Master Mark? No, Derek, it’s me -your God. Oh! I have sent Gabriel who will inform you of what has transpired since you left the earth. Be at your usual place -it will be safe.

Derek, since you went into conscientious exile, the world has changed. There are people here from long ago, and much of those you knew are no more on this earth. My wife! He remembered. She is asleep. She’s dead? For now, as are most of your friends. Will they be in Heaven? Derek, this is all that I have been told to say. And with that, Gabriel departed.

He thought about it a long time. Here he was, standing at the threshold of Tribulation. An abomination in the Lord’s eyes. Not by disobedience, but by simply wanting to live -wanting to go on. And now he was alone. He could sense the rotting flesh of his friends, in a mass grave for clueless Christians. Then a chatter came from the shadows below. It was Stacy. Somehow the blonde tailor had survived. She was cold, and hungry, ill and out of her mind. How is it you’re still here? Derek asked. But there was only sobbing. He grabbed her scrawny form up into the air. Parts of her were bruised and festering. Her face had lost its youthful vigor and her golden sparkle had all but died. They turned on us, she gibbered. Pete, Mark, the rest of them known to the government. Agents Hoag and Daphne, they gathered power through Little Lotus. Your super children, they ran for it. Derek, your powers make you dangerous to God’s purpose just as the Tribulation renders all our powers an affront to prophecy. I’m not sure anything wise and good in mortals as we are, will save us. If you heal me, they’ll sense you. Then what are we to do?

Hoag looked at Daphne. “Nak?” he asked, cackling. On his other arm hung Little Lotus, now a lusty teenager going on 18. While the former federal agent was still on the side of good, the lines between opposites were increasingly blurred. Have the final 7 years begun? Pete asked. Mark shrugged. Stacy was weak. Weak people ask too many questions. Supposedly Derek has died? He wasn’t on earth the past 5 years. Nor did I detect him. Then perhaps so. The Tailors were now just another division in the Federal Emergency Directive (FEED). Used to be we answered only to God. Now, to be told where Jesus is and what God wants by secular powers and their heathen executive. Beliefs are a lot like love. You can fall in and out of them in the space of a fart. What keeps a person coming back for more is his faith. Where he comes to get it are from people like us. Pete waited for the punchline. Master Mark looked at him solemnly. There is no logic in pursuing the matter any further.

Stacy and Derek were in his orbiting claustrum. FEED seers sensed a jump into space. Little Lotus visiting the Space Station. They laughed it off as a false positive. Inside, he healed her body easily and perfectly. I was hoping you’d appear, that’s why I hid in the islet. She pressed against him in zero-g. Her loving was like a rose bush, opposed to the dark, silky seductions of Esmeralda. He had to learn her pain and the grating sensations of her hair and skin. Raw as freshly hewn lumber. Where do we go from here? I don’t know, don’t really care either, he said.

2. The usual suspects

Little Lotus had a fan page. Just like her mother, she knew all the tricks, all the moves. In some way, she regarded Hoag, her husband-guardian as a lesser mortal. But she trusted Pete. The super man who appreciated her mother. You see, Lotus was never really bad, just disenfranchised, ironically, from her sorcerous ideology and its enforced separacy. To say the woman never had a taste of good clean fun was to say you couldn’t store water in a sponge. She leaked all the time with no regrets. Hoag had practiced the arts in isolation for 3 months, the teachings of the pawang. He had learned to gather power from withholding the taste of a fruit, as his wives enjoyed it. Sweetness, sugar -therein lies power. Salt -Hoag ate bread without it, that tasted like egg cartons. He loved Daphne like they were dolphins. And Little Lotus dreamed of being the older woman. But she was kept from his love, and she knew why. Jealousy stored power. That night, her physical dichotomy of beauty and lovelessness scored 19 million hits on TikTok.

Deep in her heart, Daphne, up till now anonymous, an accessory to Hoag’s ambitions, wondered why she trusted him. But the controlled chaos the world was descending into -which her husband moderated selflessly, stoically -their ritual lovings, and the witchling child she was tasked with bringing up, banished her thoughts of fleeing. The scourging and subjugation of the powerful supernatural tailor’s guild, The idiot, super Derek’s apparent demise, Daphne smiled to herself. She was on the winning team. Middle aged, thus far unmarried, she wasn’t about to give up her cushy life for the sake of doing what was un-obviously right, at a time when it seemed that nothing much a woman could do, mattered. It was the end times. She looked in the mirror, and it felt like a thousand gazes looked back. Her new-found beauty, perfection of form recoiled from any appreciation except her husband’s. But wasn’t this all a woman was for -to accept she were inferior, needy of a man. And all her thoughts, her deeds fell into place. The last piece of a giant historical jigsaw puzzle.

Hoag himself was never formally introduced. He and Daphne were naturals. Obedient, intelligent, persuasive. Perhaps being the right kind of man for an important job, meant he had less of a heart than those who wallowed in mediocrity and the trappings of an unstructured existence. An early death -so long, Derek. But the former federal agent, turned pawang, had once been a little boy. Grow up, son -do right things, he heard his father’s urging. The world is a hard place -his mother. Protect yourself, your family. That’s what’s important, Hoag thought -compliance to those who wielded true power, as he did. As a gumshoe, his face blended in with the crowd. He had that agent demeanor. Someone who wasn’t looking to do or say anything, no worries, nothing to sell. When he and Daphne had flown to Borneo, were almost killed, he dusted off the fear and got down to learning magic. Fear, just as Derek had rallied his dying cells, was to Hoag, like wearing socks turned inside out. Being able to conquer any emotion, what he pushed to his spiritual body’s base chakra and subverted through a mechanistic twist -it was like camouflage to his soul. And what one doesn’t see, yet knows he has through feeling it, multiplied through his charismatic wife interactions, was real power. He could have been a dark lord or a good one, but in the shades of gray that he moved in, it didn’t matter at all.

3. Some place in his heart

So too did we miss telling of how Esmeralda lost her life. Derek had been missing a long time, and the surreal events of their wedding, the mish-mash of good and evil, all letting their hair down, as if by truce, on his special day -it foamed and lathered all around her heart, meaning that her emotions, her anxiety grew the more she needed his comforting, and just as soon as they’d appeared, her feelings vanished, the popping of hundreds of tiny soap bubbles. She ran her fingers through her treacle hair. The time she went bare breasted at the rock concert after she thought he was finished. But he recovered. Perhaps it had been a mistake to trust someone with such a low IQ to hold a relationship together. But she had made her decision. Waiting for him to come home -surely there was more she could do. She called Lotus -see if she’d heard anything.

Es, came the sugary voice of the witch, the whole world is beating down the doors of those with the power to change souls, destinies. If you’re here to ask the right question, the answer is ‘yes’. Yes to what? The Tribulation is ready to begin. I bore your husband’s child. What more can I do. Lotus looked fatigued, as if she had told it many times. Used to be, whenever we found a live cell Derek left behind, he’d crush it -from his secret hiding place none of us can scry out. It’s been months since he interceded that way. Es, use your head. They’ve killed your husband.

Esmeralda called at Derek’s parents’ house. Gail and Jerry let her in. Gail, visibly holding back tears when she saw Esmeralda had come alone. He’s not with you either? Asked Jerry. No. I thought you’d know where he was. Seems no one does. I used to feel him, said Gail, as a mother, now I can’t. Shall we call Pete?

The Tailors are no more, came the voice down the line. Pete, we need you over. No. Are you in trouble? There was a long pause. Then, a ‘yes’. You can’t help us. Has Derek visited? We are privy to whatever he does. What we know will be unhelpful. You see, he won’t be around until after God takes over the world. The Tribulation is real and what you should focus on. Save yourselves before the purge. Purge? But the line had gone dead.

The streets of their small town had gone silent. Esmeralda scoped the house at the end of the cull-de-sac. It was obviously empty from the pile of letters and newspapers spilling from the mail slot. She called at the Hawaiian’s dealership, but it was closed. Things looked scattered, as if someone was in a rush to shut the shop. She pulled at the lock and it came apart. Hello? Kyoko? Boss are you in there? She flipped through the invoices on the display counter. Had her husband bought anything? He loved watches.

4. A failed arrest

Derek and Stacy were hiding in the deep shadows of the craggy slope, where it ran down into plain, into the city. You told us to meet here, said Derek. I did, came the voice of the Master tailor. Kid, we’re taking you in on orders of the Prelature. He sensed the tensing of Derek’s mind. The presence of Stacy as well. It would be two against one, male and female. Master Mark sighed. You’ve seen Gabriel. What did he say? He told me things had changed, basically. Derek, we’re being moved by God Himself, all that is good and all who are evil, uncovered by divine power. Soon we will clash over His plans for the earth versus our own designs. You can decide where your chips fall. I have, already.

Esmeralda emerged from the used-goods dealership smiling. Derek had ordered a watch, paid but had not collected. It was a rectangular automatic on a lemon yellow lizard strap. She knew it was a gift for her. She put in around her wrist. Perhaps he was at the beach cricket bowling pitch. But dry leaves littered the orange brown compacted clay. There was a notice on a lamp post with Derek’s face on it, front and in profile. ‘Wanted Alive’ it read.

Derek, we killed your wife, came the voice of the master Tailor. She was wearing this. The squarish timepiece, strap encrusted with dried blood, trickled down through the air from above him. He looked up and immediately was floored by the strike of the staff to his cranium. Help! He heard Stacy’s voice. But the blow to his head had disrupted his balance. Master Mark had been floating above them all along. It sent quivers down his spine, like finding leeches in his underwear. Slowly, he raised himself off the boulders, the spongy mass that was his head had absorbed much of the sharp attack. But as he ran a cell-check, Mark came sweeping down with a pair of scissors. If you will not die by the Lord’s measure, then He shall appoint this, cut you to pieces. They wrestled amidst the boulders. Derek found it amusing to be attacked by haberdashery. His superior strength forcing Mark to the ground. The scissors blades began to glow red-hot. It was the Master’s final deception. He smirked. But Derek twisted the glowing metal against his cheek where it burnt a V-shaped welt in his skin. Derek, stop! It was Stacy. Distracted, Mark’s cloak bellowed chalk dust at him. The Master tailor peeled the scissors off his face as Derek gasped, choking. He put one hand on Derek’s head and prepared to raise the blades, but in their struggle his other arm had lost its strength. Whimpering, Mark disappeared. Stacy wafted the dust away with her cloak, pulsing Derek’s chest with shallow Heimlichs. She didn’t tell him right away what it was he had breathed in.

Esmeralda turned, Derek! Is it you? Those were her final words.

5. Big C

The whole of his life had been a spiritual walk in the park. What was spirituality anyway, but a key to unlock a door deeper into yourself where you find an empty, undecorated room, you proceed to fill with archetypes of your functional members, of values you form from primal flight or fight interactions with the lower classes, and the original shame stoked by sneers and rebukes of the upper classes? Sometimes, such keys are better left for better people in better times. Stacy, am I a good person? No. What about yourself? See, Derek -it’s starting again. Splinters of her golden-haired goddess-ness were still stuck in his affections. And he could not decide if they needed removing. The best computer for a voyage into the blue was the human mind, to paraphrase Werner Von. Stacy, tell me if I deserve it? Derek, Mark was very cruel to you -a cell sensitive. Who knew, except him, what would happen to your body? If I were a good person, it wouldn’t have happened. He turned from her. Derek, you can’t heal your body from deconstructing Tailor chalk. It is the very Word of God -the bounds of creation. Thus you have cancer in every cell. It won’t be the end of you, but you will not be who you are much longer.

The cloak and underpants he had assimilated into his body slowed the onset of the cancer. But gradually, his flesh was turning sensitive, raw, his every function, now supported by Tailor thread woven into his being -into his very soul. This would be a test unlike any other. He would take what was still good -every cell remembered that, and grow it into the thread, the cloak. He would thus be flesh no more. Stacy watched, as Derek grew progressively thinner. His flesh melted, his muscle, and even his bones till he hung in the gloom of the sinkhole, a tattered phantom of the human form. Derek? Are you still alive? There was no reply. It wasn’t that he was sad or muted, but that the thread was weaker than he had anticipated. Slow moans escaped his hollow form. Stacy knelt in prayer as the whale songs he made washed over her.

Hoag inspected Mark’s cheek. I can barely move my jaw. The bastard. A waste of thread. The fire and brimstone scissors had taken off most of the lower right of the tailor’s face. Witches are all the same -powerless except to stoke hearts against unpopularity in the crudest of reprisals. At least Derek had a heart. I would put a rose on his grave. Pete, let’s go. Hoag looked to Little Lotus. Follow, ‘naak!’ he commanded.

6. Shadow of an angel

It was evening when Derek mustered his thread cells into proper organs of speech, but he sounded garbled, like an old transistor radio tuned a little off band. What is God waiting for? When is the Kingdom come? Derek, be patient and hide. We have to eat. I have to go buy food, hopefully not steal some. If you tell Pete where I am… Stacy nodded. They both knew. The experienced tailor with a soft spot for her lover might be of help. But to reconstruct a body, fully thread was another matter altogether. Where two or three are gathered in my name, the phrase resounded through his floating phantom form.

An hour or so passed, when he heard, Derek… Derek, a voice from Heaven calling, what ever has happened to you? Derek didn’t answer. His every word was now strained, and he felt increasingly belittled before God. Why was God so close yet so far? But the voice was that of an angel, and he was beautiful, descending into the sinkhole in robes of white and gold. He carried a scepter and in it, incense that smoked sweet and peppery. He took Derek’s limp thread body and cradled it in his arms, speaking to it and at once, he began to regrow. Powers you once had, you have no more. Wisdom shall be your strength as God now rules your thoughts. He didn’t notice Stacy standing behind him. When the angel departed, she ran and kissed him, and they ate the food she had found. It was a relief to be whole again -to be fully human.

7. Repentance

Something got Lotus out of bed late that night. The same that sent her walking down the beach, over the secret submerged coral ridge and into the islet dwelling where she had shared good love with Pete, blankly witnessed her man-in-question marry the other woman -but that she was dead now, Ha-ha. She didn’t expect to find him waiting, much less, being as he was before the troubles, before he became a super-powered freak. You came, he called to her. Yeah, is there more of this sorry story we should both act out? What she didn’t expect was his apology. When I had powers, I did things the way I wanted, whenever I felt like. I thought I would only grow more powerful. But then, and I thought of Pete, maybe he would have rescued me -from when I was a bag of thread, forced into that corner by those who knew more. I realized that it had to stop somewhere. There is a God, Lotus and I want Him on my side.

Lotus hid her smile. She and Quen were operating happily under FEED i.e. Hoag’s direction, already on path towards salvation, a carefully plotted one, made with logic and structured to account for every contingency. We’ve been absorbed into organized religion, she said. Her voice sounded care-free, genuinely well-meaning. But Derek persisted, Heaven isn’t an organizational goal -what it makes God out to be. He is the sum of our experiences which show we belong with Him. Derek, I was raped by my own horny brother thanks to you. I remember both of you every time I have a period. Derek stared at his feet. Forgive me. Huh, she turned to leave. He called after her, Lotus, get Hoag to call his dogs off. And tell Little Lotus I’ll be her father. In the gray moon-lit night, he thought he saw her shoulders slump, her steps a little more stompy. The witch was upset, but softened. Maybe he would matter to her, on some level, given time. He wondered about Master Mark. He must know God stripped me of my powers, a sitting duck for reprisals. Tears ran down Derek’s cheeks. He was truly sorry for the mad run he’d gone on.

8. A veiled message

*Derek, get up, be quick* Healing Stacy was the last lucky good deed he had done before his powers were revoked. Now she repaid the favor as the thought-sniffing doggie drones of FEED swarmed towards his islet home. Clouds in the sky, low, growing pink. There was one that looked like God -His bearded self, pronating after tossing the sun over the horizon. Derek you HAVE to wake up! But the dream he was in, was mesmerizing. In it, Esmeralda related what had happened in the first wave of the purges that deflated the power of witches, worldwide. Secret power groups like the Tailors were broken apart, assimilated. The single-minded, raw pawang truth-emotion, looped over and over eventually unnerved the fine spiritual balance of those who used other minds, who practiced the power of God through a restrictive discipline. Even gypsies weren’t spared -those who together, had the sight. Derek, I love you and I will be waiting for you. I left you a message down by the beach. It’s where you normally look -no one has found it. He woke up. Stacy, take us to the cricket pitch. She nodded.

There was a stiff wind blowing. Derek stood on the bed of clay. He wondered for a moment: ‘where I normally look’. He knelt to inspect the wicket, and it overlaid with something black and billowing, swinging off a tree further down the sand. They walked over. Stacy held his hand. And it was there they found the decapitated and shrunken head of his ex-wife. He put his fingers through her hair, it still had that lush, silky feel. He pulled on it and her scalp came off with a slight rip. On it, there was a message written in fade away ink. It disappeared before he could finish. But Stacy read all of it. It’s your friends, the Hawaiian and Kyoko -they made it out of America and are in ‘Johore’. It’s a place of villages and small towns, over sea, in the tropics. Is it far? She nodded. ‘Come be with us, the message ended’.

Esmeralda had laid down her life for her friends. And so had Gail and Jerry, tortured to death for refusing to connect with their son (while he was in orbit, in deep cellular meditation). To leave America, would that help anything? *Grow in wisdom, Derek, not in cowardice* Stacy, what is it like being wise?

Little Lotus danced for her fans. She wore a diffusing net bodysuit as cameras on stage captured her every move from a myriad of angles. Her face looked different turned left from right, and her beauty was sliced jaggedly, into choice cuts of meat, such as to obey the Fibonacci golden ratio. Vanity served only as glue did, as rivets, they held together a truth we could not bear because of the corruption in our souls. Just as pride served those whose value lagged behind their reward, so she had dispensed with both and was free. Hoag and Daphne applauded the performance. ‘Ha! ‘nak sya -bini yah!’

In the upper rooms of the North America Jerusalem complex, Master Mark lounged on a plush couch. Pete stood by the window, his face masked by the reflection of light upon it, as he looked upon his teacher’s wound. Was it right to destroy Derek that way? Why not? We killed his wife. Mark pulled his cloak hood down. He melted into its blackness. Some things are worth their sacrifice. Pete nodded. Shall we stitch up your jaw? No. The spread of bread, cheeses and herb dips laid before the master Tailor were barely touched.

Johore was indeed a land of forest and beach. As they flew overhead, small villages appeared: of houses on stilts, roofs made of tarnished zinc, pump wells, outhouses over drainage ditches. It did look like somewhere they could hide and be safe. *Here, you shall grow in spirit*. Derek smiled. Perhaps he would. Yet sleepy Johore harbored also a foreboding. They landed by a place that smelled of boiling crab. Stacy looked at him. She loved seafood. And that night, she would love him as well, for the first time -in his man-form. Soon, dusk swept over the trees and the villages like the thickening brush strokes of an angry artist, tearing away at his magnificent painting. What emotions did God feel every time His creation fled from Him into night, when men plotted with rule, with their seed, and their dreams -well, they were brazen as intentions only mattered held up to light. Dim lamps swung from the trees and the eaves of the village restaurant as Derek and Stacy snapped and hammered shell, swimming in a thick gravy of crab roe and ground chili.